Apamacam Nih!!!!

FED-UP SEH!!!!! Apa sajer lah!!! Dari satu masalah yang mengarut ke satu masalah yang tak masuk dek akal langsung mangsung!!!! Aku jugak yang diperslahkan....

Tadi pergi jumpa midwife... Alhamdulillah semuanya seems okay - blood pressure okay, urine test seems okay, took some blood test... Heart beat baby Alhamdulillah, sounds good... Hee hee! Bila midwife put her hand on my belly, the boy gave her a kick sikit not once but twice and that made the midwife smile and laugh a bit. Kira amused lah gituk kan... Baby's head is in the right position - at the bottom which is good... Thank you Baby!!! You've done well!!! Mummy so proud of you and sekarang nih pun boleh rasa dia moving around which is really, really good.... MIdwife kata kalau dalam satu hari baby tak bergerak, ialah wajar kalau I call the hospital - its better make a fuss with whatever worry you than not mkaing any fuss at all... Itulah dia cakap tuh...

Balik kerja, I somehow has been dragged into this so called miscommunication that occur between my colleague who has just resign yesterday and my bosses… What my x-colleague told them somehow bamboozled me and makes me wonder. I told her stuff in confidence and in return she manage to include my name in this fiasco that was going on between them (semalam dan hari ini)… Yes, I might have told her a bit about the company which somehow she turnaround and says that she wasn’t sure about the company after 3 weeks of working there coz they were on about her salary again and wanting her to work full time (coz at the moment she was Part Time only), yes I might have told her what had happened to all my other ex-colleagues that were unfairly dismissed for she asked me the question as how many employees were employed before her… I’m not happy with the company myself and for her pulak after 4 weeks of working with the company, there were things that she weren’t happy about and so we gossip and talk about it and discussed about it… I asked her if she’s comfortable taking over my work during my maternity leave and she wasn’t sure about it coz she saw how much I have to take in and she’ll just get ultra confuse… Seems like the bosses were so sure that she’s going to take over my work but somehow this colleague of mine says that she didn’t gave them an answer… So, there’s the confusion there…. Anyhooo… I don’t know what I said anyway coz most of the time, she was the one doing the talking and complaining and all I can do was just nod and say hmmmm…. Well…. So how this becomes my fault, I don’t know… it sure feels like it was my fault that this girl decided to resign…. The thing is WHY DRAG ME INTO IT!!!!! You made the decision, you can’t tahan them as much as I can tahan them, you are the one who keep going on and on and on about it, you were the one who was very short with them everytime they told you to do stuff or said something, you were the ONE and it has got nothing to do with me!!!!!! Next time, anybody ask me anything, I’m just going to shut it!!! That’s it… Just shut it!!!! For goodness sake, don’t bring me down with you will yah coz I only got 1 and half months to go before I said SELAMAT JALAN to them… I expect whatever that’s been said between us, is between us… right? Right? And yesterday, we went out for dinner after work with another Colleague whose leaving the company and obviously we didn’t invite the lady boss coz my colleague, Jamie, wasn’t comfortable having the boss, plus there was a tiff between the lady colleague and the lady boss, so is there a point asking the lady boss? No! I don’t think so!!! So this morning, I found out that they knew about the farewell do from their source (lady boss brother who is working with them temporarily) somehow manage to sneakily mention about the dinner last night to lady boss and I was questioned about it… They asked why was I being cheeky and sneaky about the dinner. It would be nice if they were invited… Yes it would be nice but it’s not up to me is it? 2 people don’t want you to be there and I’m just easy, so what the hell do you expect me to do? So I just said that it’s at the spur of the moment thing – last minute thing where we decided to take Jamie out for a meal and it’s just us, and where C (the girl colleague) can rant out her anger without the presence of the boss (of course this part I didn’t mention)… Make sense? Can’t we go out for a meal? Do we have to ask permission from you? Somehow, lady boss was not impressed! Now, do I really care? Do I really, really care? Nope, not really actually!!!

So, what to do? Just get on with it I suppose and next time just not say anything to anyone except with Younas my other colleague whom I can trust – not fully but a little bit will do…

Please let me concentrate & enjoy this beautiful Chocolate cake that I bought from the Café with rich chocolate cream spread on top of the delicious, finger licking chocolate sponge cake… Sort yah!!!!