Thursday, November 23, 2006

Apamacam Nih!!!!

FED-UP SEH!!!!! Apa sajer lah!!! Dari satu masalah yang mengarut ke satu masalah yang tak masuk dek akal langsung mangsung!!!! Aku jugak yang diperslahkan....

Tadi pergi jumpa midwife... Alhamdulillah semuanya seems okay - blood pressure okay, urine test seems okay, took some blood test... Heart beat baby Alhamdulillah, sounds good... Hee hee! Bila midwife put her hand on my belly, the boy gave her a kick sikit not once but twice and that made the midwife smile and laugh a bit. Kira amused lah gituk kan... Baby's head is in the right position - at the bottom which is good... Thank you Baby!!! You've done well!!! Mummy so proud of you and sekarang nih pun boleh rasa dia moving around which is really, really good.... MIdwife kata kalau dalam satu hari baby tak bergerak, ialah wajar kalau I call the hospital - its better make a fuss with whatever worry you than not mkaing any fuss at all... Itulah dia cakap tuh...

Balik kerja, I somehow has been dragged into this so called miscommunication that occur between my colleague who has just resign yesterday and my bosses… What my x-colleague told them somehow bamboozled me and makes me wonder. I told her stuff in confidence and in return she manage to include my name in this fiasco that was going on between them (semalam dan hari ini)… Yes, I might have told her a bit about the company which somehow she turnaround and says that she wasn’t sure about the company after 3 weeks of working there coz they were on about her salary again and wanting her to work full time (coz at the moment she was Part Time only), yes I might have told her what had happened to all my other ex-colleagues that were unfairly dismissed for she asked me the question as how many employees were employed before her… I’m not happy with the company myself and for her pulak after 4 weeks of working with the company, there were things that she weren’t happy about and so we gossip and talk about it and discussed about it… I asked her if she’s comfortable taking over my work during my maternity leave and she wasn’t sure about it coz she saw how much I have to take in and she’ll just get ultra confuse… Seems like the bosses were so sure that she’s going to take over my work but somehow this colleague of mine says that she didn’t gave them an answer… So, there’s the confusion there…. Anyhooo… I don’t know what I said anyway coz most of the time, she was the one doing the talking and complaining and all I can do was just nod and say hmmmm…. Well…. So how this becomes my fault, I don’t know… it sure feels like it was my fault that this girl decided to resign…. The thing is WHY DRAG ME INTO IT!!!!! You made the decision, you can’t tahan them as much as I can tahan them, you are the one who keep going on and on and on about it, you were the one who was very short with them everytime they told you to do stuff or said something, you were the ONE and it has got nothing to do with me!!!!!! Next time, anybody ask me anything, I’m just going to shut it!!! That’s it… Just shut it!!!! For goodness sake, don’t bring me down with you will yah coz I only got 1 and half months to go before I said SELAMAT JALAN to them… I expect whatever that’s been said between us, is between us… right? Right? And yesterday, we went out for dinner after work with another Colleague whose leaving the company and obviously we didn’t invite the lady boss coz my colleague, Jamie, wasn’t comfortable having the boss, plus there was a tiff between the lady colleague and the lady boss, so is there a point asking the lady boss? No! I don’t think so!!! So this morning, I found out that they knew about the farewell do from their source (lady boss brother who is working with them temporarily) somehow manage to sneakily mention about the dinner last night to lady boss and I was questioned about it… They asked why was I being cheeky and sneaky about the dinner. It would be nice if they were invited… Yes it would be nice but it’s not up to me is it? 2 people don’t want you to be there and I’m just easy, so what the hell do you expect me to do? So I just said that it’s at the spur of the moment thing – last minute thing where we decided to take Jamie out for a meal and it’s just us, and where C (the girl colleague) can rant out her anger without the presence of the boss (of course this part I didn’t mention)… Make sense? Can’t we go out for a meal? Do we have to ask permission from you? Somehow, lady boss was not impressed! Now, do I really care? Do I really, really care? Nope, not really actually!!!

So, what to do? Just get on with it I suppose and next time just not say anything to anyone except with Younas my other colleague whom I can trust – not fully but a little bit will do…

Please let me concentrate & enjoy this beautiful Chocolate cake that I bought from the CafĂ© with rich chocolate cream spread on top of the delicious, finger licking chocolate sponge cake… Sort yah!!!!

Friday, November 17, 2006

Does it have to end that way?

I’m upset coz James was and still is upset not with me but with his work…

Yesterday, we went down to see the solicitors to sign some documents for the new house – we’re almost there! Signed, sealed and delivered in a month time… But in the morning before we left home, James received a phone call from one of his colleague in London from site telling him that there’s some problem on site and they need him there as in this weekend or better if its that day itself! Last minute then they decided to ring him!!! Ugggghhh!!! I was appalled and so was he! Hearing that, he was annoyed! Absolutely aggravated beyond believe. James knew that it’s something that the guys on site can sort it out themselves and sometimes he just couldn’t comprehend why they just couldn’t try and sort things out when it’s something soooooo minor! They have a project manager there whom oversees everything but somehow this particular guy just couldn’t use his initiative and judgement himself. Mind you, the travelling between Halifax and London takes him about 4 hours and he just plainly hates driving to London plus you’ve got to pay congestion charge when you go in and out of London and also it takes forever to reach your destination. Thing is also, James hates London with a passion… It’s just one of those places that he wouldn’t live in due to the standard of living, expensive food, expensive hotels, overcrowded and all that sort. Probably some people or Londoners might disagree with him but well, different people different view. He doesn’t mind Singapore but he just doesn’t like London.

His work is starting to get to him. First it’s Leicester then London. He’s suppose to be a Contract Manager but somehow he has become like a site labour and he just couldn’t comprehend where he stands in the company. He took this job up coz his dad says he’ll be office base and that’s what he wants but suddenly the table turns and he’s going to site more and more… He’s not doing what he is suppose to be doing which is being a Contract Manager and dealing with contracts and learning the ropse of it all. His brother is cushionly comfortable being base in the office but not him. Why? Why? It seems that because James know the site and he can do levelling and setting out, they presume that he can do everything… They’ve got people on site so why can’t this guy just sort it out themselves? It’s like James got to wipe their ass all the time when problem starts to arise! And his dad just couldn’t get around to employ an agency engineer – either he couldn’t be bothered getting someone or it could be too expensive for the company… But James can’t be at 2 places in one time and with me being 7 months pregnant I would really want him to be at home with me just in case… He’ll be away this weekend – well that will be since Thursday – so Friday, Saturday and Sunday and I’ll be seeing him probably on Monday if I’m lucky…. Sigh…

Yesterday, while on the phone with James he made a firm decision. Either they get an Agency Engineer or he will quit his job… He doesn’t want to be like his dad where he works 24/7 and spend no time with his children coz all he cares about and prioratise is his work and James doesn’t want to turn out like that – be a stranger to your own sons. He wants to know his child, he wants to see his child grow up and not miss a thing. If he’s going to be away so often, he’ll miss out so much and he doesn’t want that. He rather earn less money and be with his family than having big salary and not seeing his child/children… So, what can I say? Just told him that it’s all entierely his decision but if he could stick it until end of this year, then it would be good – I think. But with the baby coming, is it wise for him to do that? I donno… I want to say something to my father in law – letting him know how upset James is with work but I don’t think its my place to do so. Better if James tell the father himself which he has mention to him before but as usual it’s on deaf ears on his dad part. If its not his way, he wouldn’t listen – my FIL that is… So, I don’t know what to do. All I can do is just be patient and just let things work out themselves… I don’t want to worry coz I don’t want my baby to feel my negative vibes… Don’t want to be sad… So I just pray to Allah for guidance for the both of us… Just wish his dad will realise how much they need an extra hands in the office and on site.

Si kecik kat dalam perut nih moving around sampai sakit my tummy dibuatnya kekadang... But exciting jugak bila rasa dia move around. Sometimes I will just sit down and watch it move! Hee hee!