Does it have to end that way?

I’m upset coz James was and still is upset not with me but with his work…

Yesterday, we went down to see the solicitors to sign some documents for the new house – we’re almost there! Signed, sealed and delivered in a month time… But in the morning before we left home, James received a phone call from one of his colleague in London from site telling him that there’s some problem on site and they need him there as in this weekend or better if its that day itself! Last minute then they decided to ring him!!! Ugggghhh!!! I was appalled and so was he! Hearing that, he was annoyed! Absolutely aggravated beyond believe. James knew that it’s something that the guys on site can sort it out themselves and sometimes he just couldn’t comprehend why they just couldn’t try and sort things out when it’s something soooooo minor! They have a project manager there whom oversees everything but somehow this particular guy just couldn’t use his initiative and judgement himself. Mind you, the travelling between Halifax and London takes him about 4 hours and he just plainly hates driving to London plus you’ve got to pay congestion charge when you go in and out of London and also it takes forever to reach your destination. Thing is also, James hates London with a passion… It’s just one of those places that he wouldn’t live in due to the standard of living, expensive food, expensive hotels, overcrowded and all that sort. Probably some people or Londoners might disagree with him but well, different people different view. He doesn’t mind Singapore but he just doesn’t like London.

His work is starting to get to him. First it’s Leicester then London. He’s suppose to be a Contract Manager but somehow he has become like a site labour and he just couldn’t comprehend where he stands in the company. He took this job up coz his dad says he’ll be office base and that’s what he wants but suddenly the table turns and he’s going to site more and more… He’s not doing what he is suppose to be doing which is being a Contract Manager and dealing with contracts and learning the ropse of it all. His brother is cushionly comfortable being base in the office but not him. Why? Why? It seems that because James know the site and he can do levelling and setting out, they presume that he can do everything… They’ve got people on site so why can’t this guy just sort it out themselves? It’s like James got to wipe their ass all the time when problem starts to arise! And his dad just couldn’t get around to employ an agency engineer – either he couldn’t be bothered getting someone or it could be too expensive for the company… But James can’t be at 2 places in one time and with me being 7 months pregnant I would really want him to be at home with me just in case… He’ll be away this weekend – well that will be since Thursday – so Friday, Saturday and Sunday and I’ll be seeing him probably on Monday if I’m lucky…. Sigh…

Yesterday, while on the phone with James he made a firm decision. Either they get an Agency Engineer or he will quit his job… He doesn’t want to be like his dad where he works 24/7 and spend no time with his children coz all he cares about and prioratise is his work and James doesn’t want to turn out like that – be a stranger to your own sons. He wants to know his child, he wants to see his child grow up and not miss a thing. If he’s going to be away so often, he’ll miss out so much and he doesn’t want that. He rather earn less money and be with his family than having big salary and not seeing his child/children… So, what can I say? Just told him that it’s all entierely his decision but if he could stick it until end of this year, then it would be good – I think. But with the baby coming, is it wise for him to do that? I donno… I want to say something to my father in law – letting him know how upset James is with work but I don’t think its my place to do so. Better if James tell the father himself which he has mention to him before but as usual it’s on deaf ears on his dad part. If its not his way, he wouldn’t listen – my FIL that is… So, I don’t know what to do. All I can do is just be patient and just let things work out themselves… I don’t want to worry coz I don’t want my baby to feel my negative vibes… Don’t want to be sad… So I just pray to Allah for guidance for the both of us… Just wish his dad will realise how much they need an extra hands in the office and on site.

Si kecik kat dalam perut nih moving around sampai sakit my tummy dibuatnya kekadang... But exciting jugak bila rasa dia move around. Sometimes I will just sit down and watch it move! Hee hee!