Hoddley, Poddley, Puddle & Fogs...

2010 Already?

2010-03-20T21:12:00.002Z

So... 2010,,, another baby... Little girl call Mas Danica Mariam Walker. She's one last February and Luke's three last February too. Its been quite overwhelming I must say but I love every minute of it! I love the fact that I have a boy and a girl, I love the fact that they sometimes play well together though there are times that they could, I mean literally killed each other (but of course I will prevent that from happening). The nicest thing ever is when Luke comes up to me and says, "I love you mama." Awww... How sweet is that? Danica? Well, she's walking, she's running, she's a little madam with attitude. She'll scream, she'll throw tantrums - typical girl is what James always says to me. I've been bless, Almahdulillah. Living with the man that I love who's able to provide for me, given the opportunity to live in this beautiful house that we call home and two children that I adore so much. Life can never get better. I thank Allah S.W.T for all that he has given me for I know all these are just temporary...

All Grown Up!

2009-01-30T20:31:00.004Z

And another addition coming our way... Soon I hope! Won't be long now! 4 days before the due date and everyone is in position, on standby, waiting patiently for her long awaited arrival. After 39 weeks of carrying, peeing, blood pressure, probing, testing, aching, running... it is time for her to show up! Now? Today I hope? Tomorrow maybe? Or next week I presume? Who knows! Only God knows! All I can do is waddle, waddle, lazying around and wait...

I do feel sorry for Luke though! With my massive belly and lack of energy and not being able to keep up with him, I'm unable to satisfy his energetic soul! Bless him!

He says 'Baby' to my belly and pointing at it as if he knows that there's a baby in it unless he thinks that my massive belly is called baby, then that's another story eh?!

He is growing up so fast! He'll be two in February and we are still contemplating on whether we should do a birthday party for him considering that I might either have given birth by that time OR induced on the 17th Feb... tough call, tough call!! Just have to play it by ear I suppose!

Oh, yes, we are having a girl! Yay!!!

Still the same

2007-09-04T22:05:00.000+01:00

Its been a good day today though we weren't able to go out coz waiting for the delivery man. We missed a delivery yesterday so they were re-sending it today. Its a gift from James for my birthday this 19th. I'll be 29 this year. Feeling so old. Can't believe I'm at that age already. Well, I see it coming but I don't think I'm ready for it - not yet. Anyway, we've been checking out restaurants that we can go to that's baby and breast feeding friendly and realised that there's not many here in Halifax or anywhere around the area which we find really disappointing. If it's impossible then maybe we'll just invite friends and family over for a barbeque - if the weather's kind to us. Recently weather's not looking too good and what hope do we have eh? Nevertheless, we've got 14 days to go before the big day. If all don't go well, then we'll just go over the in-laws and have dinner with them.

Maybe they'll be kind enough to look after Luke for a night while me and James go out for a nice long meal... Luke's sleeping had been pretty alright so far (Alhamdulillah) as he'e been sleeping through though there were nights where he'll wake up at night either for a cry, a cuddle, nappy change or just telling us that he's alone and don't like it! Anyway, this is something we might need to discuss with the in-laws this weekend...

Did I mention that I've got a cross trainer from James? yep, I think he's telling me to lose those pounds plus he can use it himself also!

Tomorrow will be an exciting day for Luke and me too. He'll be going for his first swimming lesson and I am so looking forward to it - not him but me! Hope I'll be able to meet more mothers and make more friends...

Bought a bouncer for Luke and he's loving and enjoying it like crazy! Laughing all the way!

Photos Y'all

2007-08-01T22:33:00.000+01:00

Eyes shut daddy...

Me want milk... Boo Hoo...

Mummy and me!!!

Me sooo handsome!! Hee hee!

My cool hairdo

High up in my chair

Me with my remote...

Luke Smiling Cheekily

Can't remember the last time...

2007-07-13T21:45:00.000+01:00

Well, to be honest, the last time I updated my blog was in March... that long huh? Yes... people might think that I've forgotten about my blog but actually, I've been so occupied that blogging was the last thing in my list... I am dissappointed in myself no doubt but all I wanted to do after putting Luke to sleep is sleep myself... Alhamdulillah, now, Luke's sleeping is improving and he sleeps better - well, not always but most of the time.

Our baby boy Luke is 19 weeks this week going on 5 months on the 22nd. We started to wean him now and boy does he love his food. I went to weigh him last week and he weighs 18lb 15oz and I think that's about 8.6kg and he is growing by the week, by the day... he is a curious and nosy little chap. He's responding to his name, love to laugh and smile and just a happy camper everyday of the day. He's just adorable... Of course I have to say that coz I'm the mother and he's my son - hee hee! But really for a 19 weeks old boy, he is a bit on the big side... Oh, oh and he loves his carrots and spinach and sweet potato and leek and peas... Its such a joy to watch him eat those purees food and fruits... Of course he still will be having his breast milk coz without that he won't be able to go to bed.

Pictures? Gosh, I'm still in the process of downloading my pictures from camera to computer so friends and family please bare with me okay? Sorry guys, patience okay????

Gotta go - will be back soon!!!

Me still here!

2007-03-04T15:06:00.000Z

The pain was all worth it when what we have seems so precious and slowly taking over our lives even though he's only 10 days old... Endless sleepless nights, endless nappy changing, endless feeding... He's starting to breast feed and doing marvelously, Alhamdulillah... It took him numerous attempt but together with our perserverence, patience and constant pray, he did it - we did it and now he's always contented after a good feed...

So, here are some pictures of our son, Luke Mikkhail Walker, born on the 22.02.07 @ 11.49pm, normal delivery but with the help of foreceps unfortunately. I was on labour for 20 hours and the pain was excruciating. I was admitted in the hospital for 4 days before the midwife was satisfied with our progress. It was hard when we got home coz I was panicking all the time and with James also new to this parenthood, we both were sometimes at each other where I snap at him and he snap back and we both just snap, snap, snap... but all is well once the baby has settled himself down.. So all, enjoy the pictures we took. Unfortnately, we didn't have our camera with us when he was born but these pictures were taken few days after he was born. Oh, also James and my mother in law were in the delivery room with me and they witness the miracle birth of baby Luke... Uploading some more on my fotopages... Will Update them!

Tired and waiting in anticipation...

2007-02-03T14:25:00.000Z

A week of my maternity leave has passed and boy was it great! I manage to shop around, get bits and pieces for the baby, clean the house (here and there) watch some day time telly and just do bugger all though at times I felt lazy which was normal I suppose. Yesterday we had a scare. While I was out shopping with Lucy, I felt a constant pain – a cramp to put it right and it was painful. It comes and goes and when I told her she panicked so we decided to go shorten our shopping trip and headed home – just in case. Seeing that we have no idea what’s going on, we decided to head to just in case. Unfortunately, James away in Portsmouth and won’t be back till 8pm so fortunately Lucy was willing to stay with me just in case if anything happens. Obviously nothing did happen and we concluded that it’s just a scare and it’s only a Braxton hicks… It comes and goes but not too bad… Today wasn’t that bad either, felt the cramp pain but its every 20 minutes so nothing to worry about…

We just felt really excited though and scared at the same time and really hoped that it happened yesterday but I guess its not time yet. What’s the rush eh? 8 days to go before the due date. Boy, hoe time flies when you’re having fun and worrying a lot. Mind you, the Boy’s nursery’s still an unfinished project and we presume that at the moment he’ll be sleeping with us in his Moses Basket. InsyaAllah, hope that everything will go smoothly and that he’ll be fine.

Will keep updated! :D

A Bit Late

2007-01-05T13:42:00.000Z

I'm 5 days late but here it goes:

Wishing all My Friends and Family a Happy New Year and may this year Brings you More Joy and Happiness and Prosperity...

Alhamdulillah, 2006 has been a good year for us... Not as many hiccups as there were in 2005... We managed to regain ourselves and get back on track. We found out that we were pregnant, we've got our dream house that we can agree on and somehow could afford (with the help of some trusted relative ;D) and he has a job that someday will be his.... so things were and will be going great, InsyAllah... We've had a year of downfall in 2004/2005 so let's hope that this year will be a good one for us and even if it's not, then we'll just have to find a way to deal with it positively and make sure that we get back on our feet and start all over again...

Like many, the beginning of the new year was a quiet one though we couldn't help ourselves but spend the vouchers that we received over Christmas from relatives... HMV, Next, W H Smith... We spend it all in one day without forking out any cash - just the vouchers! Hee hee! That's the good thing about Christmas though - you get presents and especially if its something that you wanted like my Tassimo Coffee, Cappuccinno, Latte, Hot Chocolate and Tea maker. The parents-in-law decided to buy me the Tassimo Machine since that's what I asked for and its just perfect for the new house! New gadget for me to play with - hee hee! James on the other hand bought me Camer - Its Kodak and I will let you know what model it is when I get home... Its super cool and not forgetting also it comes with the photo printer which is great coz I can print out the pictures straight away and it looks great!

I'm gonna snap happy with my Camera and definetely I've got to take some pictures of my colleagues and boss before I go for my maternity leave which is on the 26.01.07. Two and half more weeks to go and I am ecstatic! I keep rubbing it in about my 6 months maternity leave and James hating me for it... I'm staying home and he's working but mind you I'm not staying home for a holiday, I'm staying home to take care of the little one - so can you call that a holiday? I don't think so - sleepless nights, constant crying (maybe), cleaning the house while taking care of the baby... etc, etc... Well, if other mothers can do it, then so can I!!!

Our new house is still incomplete - the interior decoration I mean... We've got the dining tables, sofas, tvs, dresser, guest bed (which we're sleeping in at the moment) - all the big & main furniture is already in the new house, it's just those small, small details that need to fill up the room to make it a complete home... I am yet to find the energy and the motivation to get my arse up and tidy up and put things away... Mind you, we still need to get a bookcase for all the books, some plants, some small corner table to put the phone and keys and other things... Sooo many to think about but soo little time, soo little energy...

Baby's nursery room is still not up and ready. We've already ordered our Baby Crib/Cot and push chair from MotherCare and they will send it to us just 2 weeks before my due date, need to get a wardrobe for the baby's room, changing table and other accessories... HELP!!!! I need to know what to get for the baby!!! I've got him a nice newborn coat, some long sleeve newborn clothes for him, Newborn Diapers, all the bath necessities, yet to get his bath tub, socks, towels etc, etc, etc... This weekend, MIL is taking us to buy curtains so which means this will be a perfect time for us to buy those baby things that we require... Need to make a full long list!

Apamacam Nih!!!!

2006-11-23T13:59:00.000Z

FED-UP SEH!!!!! Apa sajer lah!!! Dari satu masalah yang mengarut ke satu masalah yang tak masuk dek akal langsung mangsung!!!! Aku jugak yang diperslahkan....

Tadi pergi jumpa midwife... Alhamdulillah semuanya seems okay - blood pressure okay, urine test seems okay, took some blood test... Heart beat baby Alhamdulillah, sounds good... Hee hee! Bila midwife put her hand on my belly, the boy gave her a kick sikit not once but twice and that made the midwife smile and laugh a bit. Kira amused lah gituk kan... Baby's head is in the right position - at the bottom which is good... Thank you Baby!!! You've done well!!! Mummy so proud of you and sekarang nih pun boleh rasa dia moving around which is really, really good.... MIdwife kata kalau dalam satu hari baby tak bergerak, ialah wajar kalau I call the hospital - its better make a fuss with whatever worry you than not mkaing any fuss at all... Itulah dia cakap tuh...

Balik kerja, I somehow has been dragged into this so called miscommunication that occur between my colleague who has just resign yesterday and my bosses… What my x-colleague told them somehow bamboozled me and makes me wonder. I told her stuff in confidence and in return she manage to include my name in this fiasco that was going on between them (semalam dan hari ini)… Yes, I might have told her a bit about the company which somehow she turnaround and says that she wasn’t sure about the company after 3 weeks of working there coz they were on about her salary again and wanting her to work full time (coz at the moment she was Part Time only), yes I might have told her what had happened to all my other ex-colleagues that were unfairly dismissed for she asked me the question as how many employees were employed before her… I’m not happy with the company myself and for her pulak after 4 weeks of working with the company, there were things that she weren’t happy about and so we gossip and talk about it and discussed about it… I asked her if she’s comfortable taking over my work during my maternity leave and she wasn’t sure about it coz she saw how much I have to take in and she’ll just get ultra confuse… Seems like the bosses were so sure that she’s going to take over my work but somehow this colleague of mine says that she didn’t gave them an answer… So, there’s the confusion there…. Anyhooo… I don’t know what I said anyway coz most of the time, she was the one doing the talking and complaining and all I can do was just nod and say hmmmm…. Well…. So how this becomes my fault, I don’t know… it sure feels like it was my fault that this girl decided to resign…. The thing is WHY DRAG ME INTO IT!!!!! You made the decision, you can’t tahan them as much as I can tahan them, you are the one who keep going on and on and on about it, you were the one who was very short with them everytime they told you to do stuff or said something, you were the ONE and it has got nothing to do with me!!!!!! Next time, anybody ask me anything, I’m just going to shut it!!! That’s it… Just shut it!!!! For goodness sake, don’t bring me down with you will yah coz I only got 1 and half months to go before I said SELAMAT JALAN to them… I expect whatever that’s been said between us, is between us… right? Right? And yesterday, we went out for dinner after work with another Colleague whose leaving the company and obviously we didn’t invite the lady boss coz my colleague, Jamie, wasn’t comfortable having the boss, plus there was a tiff between the lady colleague and the lady boss, so is there a point asking the lady boss? No! I don’t think so!!! So this morning, I found out that they knew about the farewell do from their source (lady boss brother who is working with them temporarily) somehow manage to sneakily mention about the dinner last night to lady boss and I was questioned about it… They asked why was I being cheeky and sneaky about the dinner. It would be nice if they were invited… Yes it would be nice but it’s not up to me is it? 2 people don’t want you to be there and I’m just easy, so what the hell do you expect me to do? So I just said that it’s at the spur of the moment thing – last minute thing where we decided to take Jamie out for a meal and it’s just us, and where C (the girl colleague) can rant out her anger without the presence of the boss (of course this part I didn’t mention)… Make sense? Can’t we go out for a meal? Do we have to ask permission from you? Somehow, lady boss was not impressed! Now, do I really care? Do I really, really care? Nope, not really actually!!!

So, what to do? Just get on with it I suppose and next time just not say anything to anyone except with Younas my other colleague whom I can trust – not fully but a little bit will do…

Please let me concentrate & enjoy this beautiful Chocolate cake that I bought from the Café with rich chocolate cream spread on top of the delicious, finger licking chocolate sponge cake… Sort yah!!!!

Does it have to end that way?

2006-11-17T13:37:00.000Z

I’m upset coz James was and still is upset not with me but with his work…

Yesterday, we went down to see the solicitors to sign some documents for the new house – we’re almost there! Signed, sealed and delivered in a month time… But in the morning before we left home, James received a phone call from one of his colleague in London from site telling him that there’s some problem on site and they need him there as in this weekend or better if its that day itself! Last minute then they decided to ring him!!! Ugggghhh!!! I was appalled and so was he! Hearing that, he was annoyed! Absolutely aggravated beyond believe. James knew that it’s something that the guys on site can sort it out themselves and sometimes he just couldn’t comprehend why they just couldn’t try and sort things out when it’s something soooooo minor! They have a project manager there whom oversees everything but somehow this particular guy just couldn’t use his initiative and judgement himself. Mind you, the travelling between Halifax and London takes him about 4 hours and he just plainly hates driving to London plus you’ve got to pay congestion charge when you go in and out of London and also it takes forever to reach your destination. Thing is also, James hates London with a passion… It’s just one of those places that he wouldn’t live in due to the standard of living, expensive food, expensive hotels, overcrowded and all that sort. Probably some people or Londoners might disagree with him but well, different people different view. He doesn’t mind Singapore but he just doesn’t like London.

His work is starting to get to him. First it’s Leicester then London. He’s suppose to be a Contract Manager but somehow he has become like a site labour and he just couldn’t comprehend where he stands in the company. He took this job up coz his dad says he’ll be office base and that’s what he wants but suddenly the table turns and he’s going to site more and more… He’s not doing what he is suppose to be doing which is being a Contract Manager and dealing with contracts and learning the ropse of it all. His brother is cushionly comfortable being base in the office but not him. Why? Why? It seems that because James know the site and he can do levelling and setting out, they presume that he can do everything… They’ve got people on site so why can’t this guy just sort it out themselves? It’s like James got to wipe their ass all the time when problem starts to arise! And his dad just couldn’t get around to employ an agency engineer – either he couldn’t be bothered getting someone or it could be too expensive for the company… But James can’t be at 2 places in one time and with me being 7 months pregnant I would really want him to be at home with me just in case… He’ll be away this weekend – well that will be since Thursday – so Friday, Saturday and Sunday and I’ll be seeing him probably on Monday if I’m lucky…. Sigh…

Yesterday, while on the phone with James he made a firm decision. Either they get an Agency Engineer or he will quit his job… He doesn’t want to be like his dad where he works 24/7 and spend no time with his children coz all he cares about and prioratise is his work and James doesn’t want to turn out like that – be a stranger to your own sons. He wants to know his child, he wants to see his child grow up and not miss a thing. If he’s going to be away so often, he’ll miss out so much and he doesn’t want that. He rather earn less money and be with his family than having big salary and not seeing his child/children… So, what can I say? Just told him that it’s all entierely his decision but if he could stick it until end of this year, then it would be good – I think. But with the baby coming, is it wise for him to do that? I donno… I want to say something to my father in law – letting him know how upset James is with work but I don’t think its my place to do so. Better if James tell the father himself which he has mention to him before but as usual it’s on deaf ears on his dad part. If its not his way, he wouldn’t listen – my FIL that is… So, I don’t know what to do. All I can do is just be patient and just let things work out themselves… I don’t want to worry coz I don’t want my baby to feel my negative vibes… Don’t want to be sad… So I just pray to Allah for guidance for the both of us… Just wish his dad will realise how much they need an extra hands in the office and on site.

Si kecik kat dalam perut nih moving around sampai sakit my tummy dibuatnya kekadang... But exciting jugak bila rasa dia move around. Sometimes I will just sit down and watch it move! Hee hee!

It Arrived...

2006-10-29T13:59:00.000Z

Saturday the 28th... All ready to go to Milah's place. Left home at about 10.30am. James decided that the first half of the journey, I should drive which was really nerve wrecking for me but at the same time I was quite excited! Well, I've never driven that far before so this will be a big challenge for me, lagi-lagi time kita nih pregnant - mana nak tahan buang air kecik etc... Time that it will take to our destination will be about 3 and half hours but oh how wrong we were. Once we were on the motorway, I can't recall how many road congestion there were! It was horrendous!!! So Jane, our SatNav decided to take us to a different route so to avoid more congestion and I guess that's why it took us longer than we hope for (5 hours you!). After 2 hours of driving, we decided to stop at the service station for some lunch and swap driver... We drove down to M1 and again, the road was congested with road works, so again Jane, our SatNav decided to take us to another different route and took us a further half hour journey extra to our time... But nevertheless, after all the driving and en-routing we arrived at 3.30pm!!! Keluar rumah pukul 10.30am sampai rumah Milah at 3.30pm - punyalah penat and panas my bontot... Miraculously I didn't fall asleep as a passenger like in the past where bila kita hit motorway ajer, my eyelids gets heavy and I will be off to lala land... What a difference. We had a great time - I know I had a great time. Sampai rumah Milah jer, terus I scan the food laying on the table. Apa taknyer, lapar betul!!! Hee hee!!! The food look so mengancam but of course I tak attack the food straightaway - malu seh! Takkan datang rumah orang terus attack makanan bila puan rumah belum offer... Iskh!!! Makanlah kuih-muih yang ada sikit dulu. James pulak glued to the cricket on telly so that's okay... No need to worry about him... Dapatlah jumpa kawan2 Milah yang gerek semua. Ada Indonesian, Malaysian and Singaporean. Macam back in Singapore gituk bila everyone get together, bual-bual campur English and Malay. It was great! Once dah offer apa lagi terus I attack the food... Ada Rendang Daging power, nasi minyak, this one dish I terlupa namanya - ada tempe dengan ikan bilis digoreng dengan samabl - aaah, itu power, even James love it! Kuih muih semua ada... Macam-macam lah makanan ada sampai tak teringat kita! Hee hee!!! Tapi memang sedap sampai menjilat Jari!!!

Met this cool and very nice Indonesian lady called Netty from Bali (I think that's how her name spelled - tak ingat kita) and she is 8 months pregnant but still look really good :)... I envy dia! This will be her third child katanya. I was unable to get her number, but she got mine so hopefully dia telepon lah kita kalau dia boring2...

So lepas dah kenyang, penat dah berbual-bual, tengok time dah pukul 8.30pm, so kita kenalah mintak diri dulu. Ingat nak stay over at Milah's tapi since James kena kerja the next day, terpaksalah kita drive home on that day itself. Sampai rumah around midnite apa lagi, balik terus tidor - takde tunggu2 lagi!

Will sambung again later about our next Eid visit to Anna house pulak the week after... dengan gambar sekali! So you all can see me dengan my perut yang besar... hee hee!

Iskh! I want to upload some pictures that my sis hantar, but tak keluar pulak... Will try again later!

Tersangatlah Busy... :P

2006-10-19T13:36:00.000+01:00

Sampai tak tahu kenapa tersangatlah busy.... It's not being busy, it's just being pure laziness that has creep up in me...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, MOHON AMPUN DAN MAAF KEPADA SEMUA RAKAN-RAKAN YANG DIKENALI! KALAU ADA TERKASAR BAHASA, SALAH SILAP TUH, HARAP DIMAAFKAN YER!!! :D

It has been that long since I posted anything in my blog that there were times that I forgot that I have a blog of my own... Read others but just didn't feel like updating mine... Donno why though! Not that I don't want to keep uptodate my progress, its just... well... just pure lazy - tada back bone gituk kan! Okay, okay... So sorry... Won't happen again, I promise!

I've past my 6th months of pregnancy... tummy seems to be growing bigger everyday though whenever I looked down at my tummy I always thought that it should be bigger than what it should be... Its just me being an inexperience mummy! James was so adorable yesterday! When we were in bed, he put his right hand on my tummy and said, "C'mon now, kick for daddy..." I just love it when he says that!

Our Eid was quiet though next week I presume it might be busy... This weekend, we'll be driving off to Essex to Milah's place for Eid Makan and also to visit her, next Sunday, INsyaAllah we will be able to go to Anna's place for her Eid Open house, though on Saturday I've gotta go to my FIl's office to help out with some filing etc... Get paid for that so the money will come in handy!!! Our open house pulak - hee hee, kena tunggu rumah baru! Bila pindah baru boleh buat open house. At the moment our current house in Shelf is a bit of a mess, so no point inviting people over... which means that for me to have an Eid do, I've got to do it in November... probably on the 11th November. Lambat pun lambat lah asalkan jadi cuma yang pikiran jer nih nak masak apa eh???? Gotta open up my Recipe folder and look through the recipes...

Sambung sekejap lagi!

Gambar Si Dia...

2006-10-09T13:28:00.000+01:00

Aaaaahhh... itulah gambra anak kita... Perempuan atau lelaki, masih betul pasti lagi tapi yang pasti Alhamdulillah, dia sihat dan sempurna! Had my Ultrasound Scan on my 20th Weeks on the 26 September 2006.... Cubalah try figure out which is which!!!!

Okay, nanti kita sambung lagi..... :D

Macam-Macamlah!

2006-09-02T22:23:00.000+01:00

tummy ache, abdominal pain, backache, can't help but throw up whenever I smell something nice like air freshener or perfumes... Hungry constantly, headaches, nausea, peeing non stop...

BUT I'M STILL LOVING IT!!!!

A R I G A T O K

2006-08-24T14:19:00.000+01:00

Alrighty then… Burp, burp…. Burrrrrrppppp…

Okay, so since I’ve had my delicious, crunchy, juicy apple, the burp starts and it just wouldn’t stop! Buuurrrpp… Its completely grotesque! Well, actually it gave me a sense of relieve after burping! Hee hee! Buuuurrrp!

This morning when I went to the ladies, some saliva suddenly decided to just choked me and I started coughing like there’s no tomorrow… Then suddenly…. Blagggghhhh…. I vomited everything that I ate this morning. It was horrendous! It felt terrible and I was weak on my knees – well literally… It was really bad… Thing was, this saliva of mine have been stucking on my throat for a few times (not constantly but kind of kadang-kadang ajer) and sometimes it made me cough so hard that I peed on my pants… Okay, yes it sounds nauseating but with a loose bladder like mine, you just can’t help it can yah? Okay bit too much detail there but I just need to know that it’s something that I’ve got nothing to worry about.

Question for the experience mummies – is it normal to have aches and pains now and again on your belly, abdominal?

I mean I’ve finished my course of Antibiotics given from my Doctor for the urine infection and I felt better after few weeks but yesterday – hmmmmmm dia mula sakit lagi but it wasn’t as bad a before though… I’m on my 15th weeks and 5 days and well, normal kah?

Later on tonight, we’ll be going to a Japanese Restaurant to celebrate Lucy’s Belated birthday with the in-laws which is already 2 weeks overdue! Hee hee! Anyway, am looking forward to it coz boy do I miss sushi! For sure I won’t eat the raw seafood what with my condition and all – probably just the fried tempura with their rice and vegetables etc… Don’t really know what’s on the menu but will definitely make sure I don’t eat the raw one, won’t even try it! Anyway, won’t be able to swallow it if I even give it a try!

Indahnya Hari Itu!

2006-08-22T14:34:00.000+01:00

It’s been decided that I will have to be the Chief Bridesmaid to my brother-in-law fiancé as I'm her only female friend that she know who’s married. So… thrilled am I? Honoured am I? I’m not too sure cause I have no clue what I’m suppose to be doing though she did give us (the bridesmaid and chief bridesmaid) a small handbook of what our roles are to be and truthfully I’m not sure that I’m keen to be a Chief Bridesmaid. The responsibilities are just way, way too much and plus with a kid to take care of next year etc, etc… not convenient or is this just another of my excuse?!!! hmmmmmmm?

Yes, yes, it’s not till December next year but I just can’t help but worry and wonder. James keep reminding me that its next year and many unexpected things do happen in a year and furthermore its better if I concentrate more on my pregnancy, the birth etc, etc, etc… Darling dearest is always level headed isn’t he?

This morning felt absolutely knackered through the bones. Even now I’m feeling lethargic and just wanna crawl into my bed, cover myself with the duvet and just go to la la land only to come back feeling fresh and energetic. I’m on my 15th weeks now and apparently this is the time where I should be exercising more – do some Yoga, swimming and apparently running or jogging should do the trick too but maybe I’ll skip the running part. Not wanting to give my baby headaches… Appetite so far has been okay though I still haven’t have that craving for anything yet… I eat all and anything I can find whenever I’m hungry and also now I’m more keen on eating and slurping soup than before.

Last weekend, I went up to Leicester with James. Despite having to sit in his site Cabin for 2-3 hours and feeling dead bored while in there (unfortunately no hanky panky in the cabin as its absolutely filthy!) we actually had a great time together in Leicester - Our dirty weekend! Hee hee!!!! Booked in a hotel called Gramada Jarvis Hotel which looked very exquisite, did some shopping while James went back to work, drank Chocolate Latte in one of the Café while reading my Dean Kootz book, did some more shopping and after feeling absolutely shattered, decided to go back to the hotel and have a good rest while waiting for the stud! He got back at around 4.30pm, had our ‘nap’ for few hours and woke up feeling extremely hungry… Off we went to this restaurant called The Chase where we made a mistake by not making a reservation but they were kind enough to give us a seat seeing that it wasn’t that busy AT that time… It was delicate! The mushroom soup that I had for starter was to die for! Gosh!!! Its not your normal mushroom soup… They blend the mushroom with all the spices and it comes out this thick yummy SLURPY wonderful soup which I must say this again was to die for! Meal was excellent and desert was just heaven! Mind you, all these food and hotel were all paid for by his company so we were making the full use out of it all! Luxurious restaurant, posh hotel… Its not often that we’re able to splurge on other’s expenses (in a kind gentle way!) Hee hee! Not good is it?

Well, all and all, I had a marvellous time and can’t wait to do it again only this time it will be on our own expenses… Can’t expect charity all the time can I?

Susu oh susu!

2006-08-21T09:00:00.000+01:00

I think my male boss is getting senile or just being a pain on my backside… Why did I say that? Well, this morning the milk was almost out, almost habis so they told me to ring our colleague who’s coming in work at 9am to get us a 4 pint of milk. It was only about 8.25am when he told me this but I told him that its too early to call him coz he might be in bed or something (which I don't think is true but well...), so best if I rang him at 8.45am which was better coz he’s on his way and he won’t forget. I called my colleague at 8.40am to get the milk for us and at 8.45am my male boss asked me if I rang him… Its just the tone of his voice when he asked me… Bloody hell man, its just milk! Don’t have to give me that tone! Macam boleh mati gituk kalau tak dapat susu!!!! (Sorry ah.. abit kasar! Boring lah dengan si dia nih!) Inilah kalau orang yang heavy coffee drinker!!!

Thing is, my colleague just bought a 4 pint of milk like last Wednesday and normally it lasts us about 1 week, so this time it lasted less than that. How crazy is that? They better pay my colleague the money they owe him for the milk coz I tell you, sometimes they just ignore about it! Tsk! Typical isn’t it? Anyway, that’s my ranting for this morning… Will write again about my wonderful weekend with James in my next entry…

Iskh! Pagi-pagi lagi dia dah kasi darah kita naik - pasal susu pulak tuh!!! Hee hee!

14th Weeks 5 Days - 17.08.06

2006-08-17T17:02:00.000+01:00

For the first time I’m hearing thunder and seeing lightning since living here in the UK. Its starting to rain cats and dogs and I’m loving it! Hujan rahmatlah katakan.

Yes, it’s been a while since I’ve posted anything on my blog. Simple reason being laziness took over me with full force. All I wanted to do when I reached home, was lay on my sofa and just stay there till time for my bedtime… of course I do need to get up now and again to go to the loo or have some snack, make tea for the hubby etc, etc… in the end, to the sofa my butt lay…

Last two weeks haven’t been kind to me – health wise that is. I had infection on my urine and so had to take antibiotics which I must say is helping now a bit. The constant pain on my abdominal had gone (a bit but not entirely) headaches been less than before, though the day before I had this horrendous headache that when I came home, I was in such a state that unfortunately, James got the lashing from me… I was unreasonable beyond believe! Anyway, we’re cool now – we both apologise and get on with our lives.

Just found out yesterday that James gotta go to Leicester for the whole weekend – working!!! Gosh! What am I gonna do? I could go out shopping meet up with people do this and that but I think the best thing that I could do is stay home, do all the cleaning that I’ve been neglecting, finish up my cross stitch (like that will happen in 3 days!), finish up reading Dean Koontz, chat with Anna, Rose, mak, ayah, sis… Bake pies probably or cookies… Well, since I’ll be all by myself, might as well I do all these right? Hilangkan kebosanan!!! Hee hee! Doing all these actually makes me really contented! It might sound boring to others but to me, it just sound devine!!!

Anyway, my physical progress – well, my face is rounder my butt isn’t expanding as much as I had anticipate, I can see that my belly is growing each week and that makes me feel really excited!!! Haven’t had any strange dreams anymore… Of course there were times that I worry about the condition of my baby inside – just hoping that it gets enough nutrition, enough anything that it needed…

Last weekend, after feeling much, much better, both of us left home at 5.45am and off we went to the Grand Prix Masters with his brother at Silverstone… Despite the rain and cold, I survive the day and had a wonderful time… but will continue in the next entry (which I hope won’t be too long) coz right now I need to go home! (Yes I’m writing this while in the office!)

Tada!

11th Weeks 3 Days - 25/07/2006

2006-07-25T15:13:00.000+01:00

Last night (or was it this morning, I couldn’t remember), I had this uncanny, fantastic dream that’s hard for me to comprehend of even interpret. A dream was just a dream, not really a reality but it was felt so real, so there! I wanted to say what the dream was but I’m not really sure if I should… What if I said it and the opposite happens, wouldn’t I be devastated? Whatever happens there’s always a reason behind it and Allah knows best and I leave it all to fate… If it happens the opposite then I redha… But the dream was glorious… it was wonderful and yet unreal, yet magnificent… It was the best dream I had ever and I wish it may come true, but all this will be up to the Almighty. I pray for his guide to show me the right path and I pray that the child that I’m carrying will always be healthy, beautiful, obedient, anak yang soleh… InsyaAllah… Everytime I think about the dream, it brings a smile to my face. It lights up my day… Its bright blue eyes, its smile, its laughter… One thing that I couldn’t remember was whether it’s a boy or a girl but all I can remember was its bright blue eyes, my parents, James and I… Well, it’s just a dream only ain’t it?

Today my tummy not feeling too good. Its been making noises and while in the office, I’ve been farting non stop… Ewwww… okay, I’m all alone sitting outside so there’s no one else to savour the smell of my fart plus it’s odourless… Tummy just felt like playing those drums and its making me uncomfortable. The weather’s not helping much either and the fan…. It keeps blowing on my face only making me want to just fall asleep right there and then… oh! Did I mention that last Friday, our long awaited new huge corner sofa that can have 5 or more people sleep on it has just arrived. I tell you, it’s so big that me & James just could spread ourselves whenever we lay down on it! It was magnificent!!! Will take a picture of it once I find my charger for the camera… I kinda misplaced it, hee hee! The old sofa – well, at the moment we’re not sure what we going to do with it. We have it moved against the wall in our living room and yes it does look a mess but this is just temporary okay! We think we will give it to charity – still in good condition only the covers need a bit of washing which isn’t a problem…

Last weekend as usual rang mak to see how she’s doing and just chit chatting away like we always do on the weekend. Seems like she’s having a fever but still that doesn’t stop her from telling me everything and anything and everything!!! I missed her sooo much… Told her to stay with me in the UK for 6 months while I’m on my maternity leave next year after giving birth but she says that’s a bit too long though she would love to! But at least she could put her feet up and enjoy the cold weather, keep me company and of course assist me with the baby, hee hee… I sure do need her by my side!!!

Well, that’s still a long way to go… when the time is near, we’ll see how it goes in the meantime, I’ve just got to take good care of myself, eat healthy, do some exercise (just the light and easy one) and wait for it to just grow and grow and grow until it decided to come out!!!! :D

Day 68 - 14/07/06, Friday

2006-07-14T14:25:00.000+01:00

And so, past few days had been exceptionally good except for yesterday which was Thursday. Reason being I ate something that my tummy couldn’t endure and I can’t really tell what it was but it’s got to be one of the mixed fruits that I bought from Tesco supermarkets… Not once but twice and so I’ve been in and out of the toilet for couple of times… I hope its nothing serious, though today I’m feeling extremely fine, Alhamdulillah. This first trimester, I’ve got to be really careful with what I eat, drink and do… Seems like eating cornflakes every morning does the trick for I’ve been having less nausea and throwing up therefore must keep on eating cornflakes.

Today, I receive a surprise news from my friend Q in India, Mumbai. It seems that she’s 6 weeks pregnant! How wonderful is that eh? Gosh, we were chatting on and on about all the unexpectancy about this and that…. It’s just sp amazing to have someone going through the same early stages with me. We promised each other to keep ourselves updated with each other’s progress and to send pictures of us blooming/blossoming… This is just so exciting but too bad she’s far, far away in India and me far, far away in the UK but we won’t be despair! We’ll support each other in any way we can! So, that’s the good news for today!

One thing for sure, I need to cut down my Chilli intake and drink less fizzy drink though it’s suppose to help me with the nausea… Hmmmm… I need to contemplate on that…

Tomorrow, we’ll be going to Ian’s for Barbeque… I’ll just have the salad thank you very much! Maybe make potato salad! Yummy!

Day 64 – 10/07/06, Monday

2006-07-11T09:32:00.001+01:00

I was in an exceptionally good mood today, yesterday and the day before (that’s the weekend) despite the headache that I had this morning which was killing my head (literally speaking). I decided to take 1 paracatemol because before when I had this headache I took one and it seems to help. I was a bit worried but if the doctor says it’s alright to take it, then I guess it’s all right as long as I don’t take it excessively, it should be fine. I was chirpy, felt fresh and not tired at all. Didn’t throw up the whole day today which was good and I think it’s all down to the Cornflakes that I had this morning. It might sound far fetched but I think it was the cornflakes. It boost up my energy… but hang on a minute. Over the weekend, I didn’t have cornflakes but my mood was excellent but I did throw up after breakfast… so again I conclude that in order for me not to throw up in the morning, I will have cornflakes!

Everytime I lay down in bed, my tummy starts to hurt and churning and I read that it’s normal but it sure does hurt though and I still have to wake up at the odd hours just to go for a pee which was now a norm to me coz you do get used to it after a while. Changes were a few, like my pants were bit tighter, boobs seems sorer and tummy – well, it seems to be growing steadily (I think, or were those just fats?). I don’t think I’ve put on weight massively which I think was pretty good considering I’ve been munching on chocolates but I do have my fair share of fruits and vegetable. I just got to get myself a new weighing machine just to keep me updated weekly on my weight.

So, that’s on my next list of things to buy (not that I have many things to buy)…

It's warm today!

2006-07-06T11:11:00.000+01:00

So what’s been up with me? Nothing much at the moment except that I’ve been such a lazy cow (again) and all I ever wanted to do when I got home from work was eat and sleep – that’s it, that’s all there’s to it…

Last night, the in-laws came over to ours for a surprise visit. As usual, James was in Leicester leaving me all by myself (boo hoo) and won’t be home till Friday afternoon so they said that since they were down in Halifax, they thought of popping by just to see how I was doing. Awwww… That’s so sweet! We chatted, drank tea, ate biscuits and decided to go out for dinner. It’s pretty awkward just being with both of them without James but I survived, I did! We went to this meditterranien (not sure how it’s spelled) restaurant which was really cosy and very secluded. Food was excellent, the orange juice was nice, the company was good and the ambience was just perfecto! What more can you ask for eh? But when I got home, my tummy starts churning and making funny noises. I think I over indulged myself with the mushrooms and potatoes. I had grilled salmon which was nicely soaked with this very delicious sauce mixed of red & green peppers, tomatoes, chillies, garlic and herbs and there was just a pool of sauces on the plate and it was gorgeous! I had a great time though there were times that conversations among the in-laws were limited. We would sat in silence for like 2 minutes and there I was trying to think of what to say. But eventually we got there… We enjoyed our food and the company – per se! Hee hee!

Overall, so far Alhamdulillah, the pregnancy seems to be going on okay though there were times that I got worried here and there but after some reassurance from experts, I calmed down just a bit and am taking things as easy as possible… Pains & aches here and there seems to be a norm thing, so, I will try not to worry too much. Being sick, throwing up is part and parcel of being pregnant I suppose as I’m getting it more and more every morning, afternoon and sometimes at night. Mega sensitive to smells for it will easily set me off! Gosh, terrible feeling but still, am enjoying it every minute and every second even the throwing up part… Seems also that I’ve gained few pounds but not massively though. I tried to eat as healthy as possible though sometimes I end up eating junk! Hee hee! Too lazy to have a proper meal especially since I’m all alone and only cooked for 1 person…

Am eating baby tomatoes, carrots, fruits (if possible) and try drinking loads of water. I’m not a mega fan of water, but I just have to drink like 1 litre of it every day just to quench my thirst. I sneakily did drink fizzy drink now and again but hey, when I read up the pregnancy book, it did mentioned one of the tips to avoid nausea was to drink fizzy drink… So, there you go! You can’t argue with expert can you! Yah, yah… just an excuse but I don’t go overboard with it though…

Hmmm… Feeling peckish now. Gonna hunt for food in the pantry now!

Itulah tuh...

2006-06-29T13:21:00.000+01:00

Hai, hai, hai… kesian Cik Siti Nurhaliza kita tuh… Bermacam-macam spekulasi dihebohkan di media, di kalangan peminat dan pihak media… Tak tenteram betul dibuatnya dengan berita-berita mengenai beliau dan Datuk K dan tarikh perkahwinannya - digempur-gempurkan… Kenapalah orang ramai semua tak nak biarkan dia dengan keputusannya. Sudah dikatakan berulang-ulang kali olehnya, jika dia sudah bersedia akan beliau umumkan siapa calon suaminya, tarikh perkahwinan dan tempat persandingannya (agaknya lah tuh). Give it a rest!

Bagi saya, memang apa yang Siti lakukan itu betul dan saya sokong 100%. Ialah, semua yang kita rancang nih kan tak semestinya menjadik dan mungkin sebab itulah Siti mengambil langkah yang selamat iaitu hanya akan memberitahu pihak media dan peminat apabila semuanya sudah confirm dan seperti katanya ada 'hitam putih'. Maklumlah, kalau diberitahu awal-awal dan semuanya belum pasti lagi tup, tup tiba-tiba semua tak jadi, siapa yang malu kan? Heboh sekali lagi pulak pasal putus cinta Siti Nurhaliza dan si polan, Siti patah hati lah dan sebagainya… Jadi ada baiknya apabila semuanya sudah pasti dan sudah ditetapkan, barulah elok diberitahu.

Lagipun sebagai manusia, kita mestilah menghormati keputusan dan pendirian seseorang. Takkan hanya kerana dia seorang artis, dia harus beritahu segalanya. Biarlah Rahsia kan? Sampai waktunya, sudah tentu Siti akan beritahu, seperti yang di ulaskan berkali-kali apabila ditanya pihak media…

Sukar untuk kita mengerti apa yang dia sedang alami dan sebagai peminat dan manusia, kita haruslah bersabar…

Kenapalah harus membesarkan keadaan… Tunggu sahajalah…

Dan mengenai Datuk K tuh, janganlah kita membuat sebarang andaian yang sewenang-wenangnya. Dapatkan buktI yang kukuh sebelum membuat andaian, sebelum membuat cerita. Kalau betul Datuk K dan ‘rombongannya’ datang ke rumah Siti, biarkanlah… Apa susah-susah… Manalah tahu mereka ada urusan bizness ker atau mereka itu sedara ker… hanya Tuhan dan keluarganya jelah yang tahu maksud kunjungan itu. Janganlah kita buat andaian lagi… Just give it a rest - AGAIN!

Bukannya apa… Saya nih bukanlah peminat fanatik Siti – minat tuh minat jugak tapi setiap kali bila bukak website tak rasmi Siti, ctnurhalizaonline.com, tidak putus-putus mengenai Datuk K, hari tarikh perkahwinannya, peminat marah tak tentu pasal, spekulasi sana sini… kita pun rasa kesian kat Siti tuh…

Berilah dia peluang… Tunggulah dengan kesabaran… Hormatilah keputusannya itu. Pihak media janganlah bergossip sana sini, membuat keadaan yang tenang tukar menjadi huru-hara dengan apa yang dicatatkan. Sudah dikatakan oleh Siti berulang kalinya, akan diberitahu apabila semuanya sudah hitam putih, apabila semua sudah confirm…. Susah sangat ker untuk difahami?

PS: Jangan marah yer, ini Cuma luahan hati saya sahaja sebagai peminat yang bersimpati dengan apa yang dilalui… Try and be in her shoes for once... Boleh datangkan high blood pressure dan stress nanti! Sabar Siti, sabarjelah! Ini semua hanya satu dugaan dan cabaran... Onak duri yang harus dilalui... Kalau dah ready tuh, apa lagi, shout it out babe!!!! Hee heee!

Thinking...

2006-06-23T15:27:00.000+01:00

When I come to think about it, as little as 7mm (size of the baby) the baby’s heart beat is as clear as daylight. It’s living and its breathing and its heart is beating to stay alive.

Then I thought - for those women who decided to have an abortion or as it’s normally used in Malay terms as washing/flushing it away - for the baby to be at such tender age of 6 weeks or less- it’s vindictive. Though its only small, that doesn’t mean that it doesn’t have feelings or there’s nothingness in it. It’s created for you and there’s always a purpose why it’s created for you no matter if it’s an accidental pregnancy. It’s yours to keep and yours to cherish and take care of no matter the circumstances. Good always comes in a package that you might think is unkind (if that make sense). Maybe circumstances tells you it's not the right time to have it, next time then... maybe you might say that the world is too cruel for it to be living in...

Well, whatever the reason is, it's still ending the life of an innocent child and that's still a merciless thing to do...

Whether if the baby is 2 weeks old or 8 months old, it’s alive and it knows… It’s breathing, it has a heart beat that beats and beats and beats - it’s in you, it’s part of you as one…

Some may regret some might not...

That’s just my thought for today whether anyone like it or not...

Sakit sini sana...

2006-06-22T09:49:00.000+01:00

These past few weeks had been good to me - No nausea no backache no cravings except for the bit of crankiness but that’s just it and other than that, it all seems to be going smoothly, oh and also despite the odd tiredness, just being pure lazy, all seems okay, Alhamdulillah. Well, as they say, this is still the early stage. But there is one thing that I crave for and that’s Nutella. We bought a bottle of it just for me last week but the thing is, when I was reading up the book that the mid-wife gave me, it says that I’m not to have nuts so as to prevent the baby from being allergic to nuts… Now, this might sound silly, but does Nutella comes in the same category? I know they have Hazelnut in it but how much of it, I’m not sure… So, any clue?

For the past three weeks, James has been in Leicester leaving me all alone to fend for myself. It seems that he have to be away for another 2 weeks from the way he told me yesterday. It’s been lonely I tell you and so to occupy myself I read, watch the telly/football, snoring away and just resting…(To the girls, I’m so sorry that I haven’t pick up the phone to ring you girls. I’ve been feeling extremely tired these past few days but still, no excuse! Will make the effort.)

Went to the hospital yesterday with my MIL (as James is still in Leicester) for my US Pelvis Scan as I was suspected to have PCOS before but after telling her that I’m pregnant, she says there’s nothing much that they can see now from the ovaries as it’s all different, so what she’ll do is just scan the womb, the baby, and just see if my ovaries were okay. And so as I looked at the monitor, there it was… our tiny, tiny - the size of a bean – baby, only 7mm and yet you can still see the heart beat beating so fast. MasyaAllah! It was such a joy and it was amazing! It’s so TINY!!!! Yes, yes, I need to calm down, still too early, still too soon, but the feeling was amazing to see such tiny thing in you and seeing the heart beating! What an amazing feeling! You can’t help but feel excited and thrilled especially if this is your first time. It’s a shame that James weren’t there to share the joy with me, but not to worry, InsyaAllah, there will be other times.

I’m 6 weeks and 5 days pregnant and my EDD will be on the 9th Feb. Such accuracy eh?

I am still here!

2006-06-05T20:05:00.000+01:00

For so long I haven't written anything here in the blog and I do apologise to my friends who's been wondering where I've been... Well, especially to SassyLady, I am truly sorry for all this delay! With so many things going on around me that to sit down and update my blog is just impossible. BUT now... well.... I have NEWS! Great News! Wonderful NEws! NEWS that we've been waiting for... Well, News that I've been waiting for and not sure about him but now it's sinking in to him so, we'll be alright...

Anyway... the news is... WE are PREGNANT! We are EXPECTING! We are having a BABY!!! All thanks to the trip to Singapore! Hee hee! Well, not really... Still, we are absolutely ecstatic with the news!!! Funny thing is I took the Home pregnancy test 3 times just to make sure and today, ta the doctor, she confirm it!!! And YEA!!!! Alhamdulillah!!! We are just thrilled! Scared and excited at the same time... Woo Hoo!!!! WE told family, friends and last but not least blogger friends about this good news!!!! OOoohh! We just can't stop smiling for sure! Well, I CAN'T stop smiling and grinning! It's all going great!!!

Some Photos From the Malaysian Week

2006-05-24T21:18:00.000+01:00

A Day In Cheadle

2006-05-21T15:20:00.000+01:00

Sue, Jaevyn (the Birthday Boy) and Me

The timer works...

Seems like he's more interested in the cake than taking picture...

what a dear he is!

Me & Jaevyn

Cool birthday cake...

He can't have the real thing, but the cake will do at the moment

Standing Proud on his Birthday

And I tell you...

2006-05-19T22:41:00.000+01:00

Sitting here, sipping my cup of Limpsip at a snail's pace to avoid my tongue being scorched I Sniff, sniff, cough, cough… ooohhh my head… but no, I’m not in bed but just wished that I am though. Wished I had picked up the phone when I was at home, lying down on my bed, contemplating as to whether I should go to work or not and just ring the boss up and say,

“Look, I’m sick here and I demand a sick leave just for today and no, I’m not playing sick, considering that it’s Friday and people might be doing just that.”

So here I am at work but not doing my work, instead writing for my blog and not forgetting chat to my dear friends. Well, who has the energy to work when you’re feeling rough as sandpaper? Been feeling like this for almost a week or two – well, let’s just say that since I came back from Singapore I’ve been feeling ill and I refuse to go to the doctor. Just your everyday normal flu bug/hayfever… But I do hope I get better today for tomorrow I gotta go to London… I don’t have to but I’ve been putting this trip off for a year and plus this gives me the chance to meet up with Kak Teh and fellow Singaporean, Milah.

So anyway, I am absolutely looking forward to this long trip to London tomorrow. When I said a long day trip, I mean it! Will take the bus from Leeds @ 5.50am where I’ll arrive at the Victoria bus station @ 10.30am. Meeting me will be my dear Milah and so after months of talking over the phone, this will be our first meeting… Off we will go to Covent Garden for the Malaysian Festival; meeting up with Kak Teh and other rantauan members… Maybe we’ll go for makan and get to know the rest of the Malays living in the UK. Will be leaving from there London @ 6.35pm and arriving home @ about 11.30pm. Am glad that it’s a Saturday though for the next day I could just stay home…

Ooops… Almost forgot - well, Not entirely though… We still got to go to Manchester City Centre to cheer on Adam on his Marathon with Sue and Jaevyn. Let’s hope that it will be a lovely day. Maybe while waiting for Adam to complete his run, we’ll all go shopping and a meal after that… Gonna be a busy weekend for sure but definitely looking forward to it…

And for the next weekend, we’ve got a party to go to – it’s our friend 21st birthday party, so we’ve got to attend… Other than that, nothing planned! Maybe go Blackpool for a day? Or maybe Alton Towers if the weather permits!!! It’ll be along weekend next week – Spring Bank Holiday so, Monday will be an off day for us!!!! Woo Hoo!

Okay, Okay...

2006-05-09T14:06:00.000+01:00

Okay, so it's not complete and not all the pictures are in there, but just these at the moment okay? I know, I'm bit slow at this, so please, be patient with me okay? Thank you all! Just Click here for our photos!

Pictures? Where is it?

2006-05-05T14:34:00.000+01:00

Okay, promise it will be up and running! I just need to decide where to put those pictures... Will keep you inform! 300 odd pictures babe! Need time to upload and do some changes etc, etc... Patience please! :D

Love
MJ

As we touched Down - Brief Summary

2006-05-05T14:24:00.000+01:00

Two weeks in Singapore were just never enough. Too short of a period of time but nevertheless, I was glad that I was back home – WE, should I say. Not much as he but I was definetely looking forward meeting people I loved and missed.

So, as the plane touched down in Changi Airport, we headed towards the belt where our luggage will be. As per normal, it took us a bit of waiting before our luggage arrived and through my lazy eyes I scanned outside hoping to see familiar faces… Hmmm… no one that I recognised. I hoped that I gave them the right date and time as this happened before where I gave my family the wrong date and time which was a day too early.

We got our luggages and headed out and excitedly scanning around looking for familiar faces…

Heek, I saw them, I saw them but they didn’t see me… Their backs were facing me and so I approached them slowly, gently and full of anticipation.

“Assalamualaikum, boleh tupang tanya?” I asked them and when they turned around, how shocked & thrilled they were to see James & I! Hugs, kisses, more hugs and more salam and more hugs! How I’ve missed those faces! The kids, well, they were a bit apprehensive, considering that we haven’t met for quite some time, they weren’t sure what to make out of their Auntie and Uncle. Oh how I missed them!

We chatted in keenness while pushing the luggage trolley and hoping to find SassyLady & PrinceRomp. Now, this will be the first time I’ll be meeting them so I’ve no clue as to how they looked like. After turning my head left to right, PrinceRomp spotted me and then SassyLady and then…

It was a very brief meeting but I’m glad that we were able to get acquainted and at least when reading their blogs, I can put faces to it… Thanks guys for taking the time to meet us at the Airport! We appreciate it very much and hope that we’ll be able to do it again - I mean meet again!!!

So, after those brief meetings, we were off to sis place to unload and unwind! After that long flight, boy do we need to shower and rest. Everything was a blur that day and so, the holiday begins…

I won’t go into details about our trip as I will let the pictures do the talking but frankly I wished that I could stayed longer and spend more quality time with the family but it is what it is right? So, till next time my wonderful, beloved family and friends! May our next meeting be an extensive one that you would get so sick of me and just want me to leave! Hee Hee! I will smother you till you say nooooo!!!! Huh?

Missing you, missing you, missing you!!!!!

First, its The Flight Journey

2006-05-05T14:15:00.000+01:00

Looked out the window and beautiful clouds forming it’s own shapes and sizes - pure bliss.

“What would you like to drink miss?” I was startled by the voice…

“Orange juice please, thank you.” I looked over and saw James sound asleep so I told the steward that he’s fine with drinks at the moment. Just can’t bear to wake him up…

Seats weren’t as comfortable as we hoped for as we felt that we’ve all been crammed together like sardines in a tin. It was a very uncomfortable trip back home from the UK to Singapore and I could see the frustration on James face when he woke up.

I must say that Flying with KLM was the worse experience ever and to whoever wants to fly back to either Singapore or Malaysia with KLM economy class, I suggest you change your mind and choose other airlines.

It was the most uncomfortable return trip with KLM ever! Seats were just too close and you just don’t have enough leg room and I pity those who have long pair of legs coz I bet they have to suffer the most. The bus seats in Singapore were more comfortable than the KLM flight seats. Not to mention that the food were just pure awful and don’t get me started with the Air Hostess… All you see from them were the sour prunes on their faces – where’s the smile? Long gone I presume!

So, all in all, flight trip to and fro was just pure atrocious and never again will we fly with KLM even if they’re cheaper than other airlines… And did I mention too that you don’t get your own telly screen at the back of your chair? Now that’s disappointing as to watch a movie in KLM you have to lift your head up to the angle of the telly to watch it and in the end you’ll get a stiff neck… I mean, Emirates or Malaysia Airlines or Singapore Airlines, you have your own telly and control and you have your own choice of watching movies at your own pace, or just listening to music or better still play those games when everyone were fast asleep… Long flight like this, you need those!

Okay, so now you know the frustration we had with KLM and that’s why we don’t recommend you flying with them unless you really don’t have a choice and you just don’t mind all those mentioned…

Just let me remind you that with long hours flight like that (12 hours +-) and the money that you pay for a return flight, you expect something decent but unless you’re travelling business class, then, I say no more!

Away on Holiday

2006-04-14T14:45:00.000+01:00

So, the time has come for me to bid farewell to all my blogger friends for the next two weeks as I'll be going back home to sunny Singapore... Past few weeks has been busy running around places trying to get stuff for family and friends... So, this will be paused temporarily from the 15th April till the 1st of May...

For friends in Singapore, hope that we'll be able to meet up for a get together! I'm really looking forward to this!!! Take care you all!!!

The Final Touch

2006-03-31T20:47:00.000+01:00

Uncooked Pau all wrapped up ready to go to the steamer

All Cooked BBQ Chicken Pau - glossy and delicious

Hhmmmmm... That's what the inside looks like! Delicious isn't it?

Up close and blur

The Day I decided to Make BBQ Chicken Pau

2006-03-31T20:42:00.000+01:00

Breast chicken cut in chunks and mixed with Tesco BBQ Sauce and some Chili Sauce

The Box said after rolled out, cut it into 12 pieces
but it seems impossible so I only able to cut into 6

This is the Pau mixture I use which work wonders...
Yes, I cheat a bit but next time will definetely do it from scratch!

Good Laugh At Last!

2006-03-31T14:07:00.000+01:00

It's been a long time since I've had a good laugh - I mean proper hyena kind of laugh. I was talking to a new found friend last night over the phone, and she being a Singaporean was another plus as we spoke about everything and anything in that hour or maybe just 54 minutes. Didn't realised that we spoke that long though. Well, they say when you're enjoying yourself, time just flew by without you noticing it! Subjects that we touched on? Well, it all started with food and food, then the singlish then, weather, then food again, then our lives, then Singapore.. and then, and then.... many many more...

I'm really gald that I've found another 2 other Singaporean living in the UK - though they're living around the Lancashire area, that won't dampen our communication and We try to chat as often as possible! I hope we'll be able to meet up with one another!

Not forgetting, N, a fellow Malaysian who lives in Manchaster that I've been in contact with recently too! Gosh, she's also a wonderful lady and a doting mum - heck, all of them are! We had good laughs too whenever we chat on the phone! I think I better give her a ring today for I haven't done that quite some time!

Kak Teh did mentioned that in June, there will be a London Malaysia festival and for definete I will be there. All I need to find out from her is the exact location and the date and time of the festival! I've arrange with M yesterday that we should meet up at that Festival as she's living in London herself... Oooohh! This will be exciting! I just can't wait to meet up with her and her friends! She seems/sounds like a super duper mummy... Heck I think all of them are super duper ace people that I'm glad to meet!!!!

Thanks ladies for making my life this year a full one!!!

Sheesh! What a Day

2006-03-31T08:23:00.000+01:00

So, yesterday I wrote a not so nice entry and true, I should have e-mail her first but I didn't...

My mistake, my mistake! I let the whole world know about this instead and I can see why she don't appreciate it! Somethings are meant to be provate isn't it? Stupid MJ! I guess I shouldn't have done that and again I guess we won't be speaking to each other anymore in the next, oh I don't know weeks, months or years or so... There's no excuse for my behaviour...

I am a nice person, I know I am - ask all my friends, ask my family, ask my other friends... They will say to you that I am a nice person and I never do anyhting to hurt or harm them... You've got to know me to know what sort of person I'm truly am for I don't normally do this kind of thing. But I guess, you'll never know! It's okay, guess you won't lose or gain anything from knowing me too seeing what I've did...

Anyway, I just wanna say I'm SORRY if you feel the way you feel and I'm SORRY for saying and writing the things I said and wrote. I didn't mean no harm and I guess I might have misinterpret what's been written and it was a bit harsh of me to say what I say...

So for anyone who have read it, please, forget about it and ignore it and move on...

Truthfully, she is a nice person, and I'm really dissappointed that with my behaviour yesterday, I actually have lost a friend...

I'M SORRY AGAIN GIRL...

PS: Prince, will delete those inactive links! Thanks bro!

Some more?

2006-03-28T22:09:00.000+01:00

That's Ian, our single friend... Hee hee! Any takers?

In black & white

Brothers? Yes they are!

Smile ladies!

More Random Pictures

2006-03-28T22:05:00.000+01:00

You do wonder what he's upto!

No, he's not the murderer, just a bit out of place! Hee Hee!

Waiting for the menu

hiding behind the menu - shy? I don think so!

Random Pictures

2006-03-28T21:50:00.000+01:00

Countdown - 23 More Days

2006-03-21T15:51:00.000Z

I have to emphasize yet again that weather today is abysmal. Cold, constant wintriness… I can feel it all over my delicate body…

Did I say it right - my delicate body?

Am I being utterly and brutally honest here? Ha ha ha hah!

Okay, so what’s the crack there then?

Just had my lunch or as they call it here ‘dinner’ - 2 plums, 1 packet of Ryvita Minis and 1 bowl (?) of pasta and cheese (low fat thingy). It might look as if it’s a lot but it’s not really.

So what’s the deal here – instead of calling it lunch, the Brits call it ‘dinner’? Isn’t dinner means makan between 6pm till 8pm and when they call dinner it’s actually ‘tea’… Okay, so tea – high tea, low tea? I’m still bamboozled about all this even after living here for couple of years. Getting used to it I can’t! Well I got to as I don't want to look like the ever so new girl in town... Paiseh!

I am so looking forward to the trip back home. Yes, I think I’ve mentioned it like a berzillion times but heck, I’m just over the moon!

23 days to go y’all and I’m coming home – yes I am, ooops – that’s WE are coming home and WE are looking forward to the sun sand and sea! I’ve got so many plans and so many people to see – we, we, we… not just I but WE!

James very amuse about all this (not amuse ha ha but just amuse hmmmmm). He says that somehow he felt that with this trip he doesn’t have any say or control in any of it… He’s right. Decisions are made without verifying with him first and so he says that whatever I decide he’ll go along with it as long as it won’t burn our pockets… Fine by me baby!

I haven’t told him yet how much it’s gonna cost us to stay in Kuala Lumpur and that we’ll be paying for my parents, nephew & niece transport & accommodation… Hee hee! Well, its my money and I use my other bank account to pay for it so there you go! It’s sorted then! Right? Right? Right…

So, I had my appointment with the Gynaecology last week on the 14th. They still need to do more blood tests and this and that tests… I’m a bit edgy. You know what’s weird? I bought this magazine today right and what’s really dreadful is when there are two articles on two celebrities who detected cysts on their ovaries. Now I don’t know what you call that but it’s a sign isn’t it? I mean, twist of fate? I don’t think so! Maybe it is just a coincidence but it’s too close to home! Sheesh! Gotta get a grip on myself…

Therefore my gynae says that I’ve got to go back in the next 4-5 months and by that time they might have the results and if what they say is true, they might have to scan it... and so from there they’re able to tell…

In the meantime, like James say don't worry too much and just enjoy myself and drink more ubat periuk from mak! Blah! Ewwww!

Snow Again on Friday!

2006-03-06T15:34:00.000Z

This question will give the impression of me being so dim-witted but I need to know… How in the world do you change the background on the blog? I mean, if I wanna choose a different pattern or even different background colour, how in the world do I do it? Could someone please show me the path? I’m sure to do it is nothing major but, well, I’m just a bit…. Uhhh what do you call it? Daft? Okay, help me out please?

Weekend macam mana? Okay semua? It’s been snowing here over the weekend and to go out is like a major chore for me and even James. It’s cold out there! I don’t want to freeze my butt off when I go outside but then again I don’t want to be coop up at home doing bugger all so, better out than in! Sounds dodgy!

James have to work on Saturday but thank God it’s only for few hours. Picked him up from work, dropped him off at home and I sped off to town. Got to be at the bank before 12pm since it’s Saturday and it’s half day for them.

Looked at my watch and I have only about half an hour to go before closing time. Traffic wasn’t that bad, that was good. Now, to park… Something that I have been dreading the most but then again if I don’t do it, I won’t be able to park would I? Drive around the lot and found myself a spot. Now, to reverse park or not? Oh! To hell with it, it’s either now or never! I did it! For the first time in my not so adventourous, not so exciting life, the one thing that I dread doing most, I did it with confidence and with professionalism…. Ha ha ha! Though I’ve got to ‘adjust’ here and there few times, but heck, I did it! I reverse into the parking spot and am damn proud of it and the great thing was, I did it all on my own without having James distracting me and confusing me and judging me and criticising about it and … oh, no more already… Got carried away a bit.

I’ve got all my documents that they required and requested with me, and soon as I got to the bank, the teller says,

“We need your OTHER bank account statements in order for us to process with you application.”

With confusion I say, “But when I was here last week, one of the teller told me that all I need to bring is my Counterpart Driving Form and now you’re telling me that I need to bring my other bank statements?”

Smiling she says, “I’m sorry, but since you have no utility bills under your name, it’s difficult for us to process. I tell you what, I’ll photocopy your Driving Licence, Counterpart and passport and I’ll pass it to the people at the Head Office and we’ll see from there, okay?”

My head says, “You better, b$%*@! So bloody difficult to open a bloody account! Hey I’m putting my money in your bank okay, not the other way round so, if you try to make it more difficult, then I'll show you hell!”

But what I actually say, “Right, okay then… So, anymore information that you need from me?”

“No, no, it’s all okay. You’ll hear from us in the next 5 working days. Thank you and see you later.”

“Yah, whatever lah! Susahkan kita ajer!”

After that, I decided to treat myself and bought some makeup kits and moisturiser and other wonderful stuff that brings me to a total of £43. Gulp! Didn’t I check how much they all costs? Well, apparently not! I was dismayed to see the grand total, but it’s all been scanned so got to pay for those blasted things!

Not to forget I bought myself 2 books, one from the author Tash Aw and the other – yet to remember the author. Will let you know. And not forgetting also, also, also for my darling James his ever so favourite sports magazine, the Autosport - F1 Race interviews and what nots... All about the Formula One... (I'm still waiting to be taken to any F1 Races and I'm getting sick of waiting!)

I got back home in time as Andy & Lucy will be picking us up at 1pm to meet up with the parents.

When we got to the barn, only Daddio was at home as mummio were at downtown. I must say, I could be such a cheeky monkey when I can be sometimes especially towards my father in law. I can be so sarcastic when I talked to him but of course it’s all in jest, nothing too serious! I like him; he’s a very nice man and both he and my mother in law have helped me and James out a lot even before we got married! He paid for my Spouse Visa that cost me upto S$500 and he always pay for my flight ticket whenever I visit James in the UK when we were only engaged… They’re so kind to my family as well and we all get along so well…

Anyway, the meeting? Well, it was very positive and beneficial for both brothers. My FIL were talking about bonuses and all and I asked him, “What about spouse bonus? Do you have one of those?” Of course I was just messing about. Heck, there’s no such thing – or is there? Anyway, after saying that, Lucy offered herself to work with them as a secretary if they do decide to have another office in Skipton or Keighley. I wanted to bring myself forward but then I just kept quiet about it. I would love to work with his dad and James and Andy as a secretary and I’m sure the money would be great and also I don’t have to do odd jobs anymore like what I'm doing now in this company… Well, we’ll see… It might be difficult if they have to choose between me and her… I mean, if they took me on board, I don’t think she will be pleased about it knowing her. But for me on the other hand, it doesn’t really matter if she get the position – Malay say dah rezeki dia kan? Maybe I should send him my resume for reference eh? Just in case kalau-kalau dia memerlukan seorang secretary/PA yang cekap dan berpengalaman! Sneaky isn't it? Hee hee!

Kalau ada rezeki tak ke mana… If I’m meant to work there, Alhamdulillah, kalau tak pun, tak kisah lah… Ini semua kan rezeki masing-masing! Tapi kalau dapat kerja kat situ pun best jugak – family affair lah katakan! Sama-samalah kita berdoa yer?

Or maybe I am meant to work in this company that I’m in right now for the rest of my life… Seraaaam!!!

Bukak business sendiri lagi bagus eh?

Peluang Keemasan

2006-03-03T10:01:00.000Z

It’s still a grapevine. Nothing being corroborate until we go up to the barn and the family will have a discussion about it. Well, it would only be between the boys and their dad so us ladies (me, Lucy and maybe even the MIL) would just have to sit back and let them have their talk… Probably I might suggest that we go down to Skipton town and do bit of shopping or even enjoy a cup of tea and a scone. But I think that my suggestion will be taken lightly or even be ignored knowing Lucy, she might want to sit down with them and join in the discussion which I find it inappropriate but I could be wrong kan? Call me old fashion, call me ulu or whatever but that’s just me! Ialah, Lucy tu orangnya ada sikit aggressive especially when it comes to tunang dia (my BIL) punya duit and kedudukan my BIL in the dad’s company… Aku tak kisah lah… Apa yang bapak dia nak berikan untuk James, aku hanya dapat bersyukur kepada Illahi dengan rezeki yang diberikan. Aku tak nak lah masuk campur hal dia dan bapak dia… Bukannya aku tak nak ambik tahu, it’s just that I know my place and my place as a wife is to support my husband in any shape or form…. And my place as a daughter in law is to just respect the bapak mertua keputusan and apa-apa yang dia nak cakap lah!

Alamak, in the midst of writing this, rasa nak muntah-muntah pulak! Tak sempat nak pergi tandas tekak dah tak loya lagi… Hmmm… agaknya kopi yang aku buat terlalu pekat kot? Anyway, dah okay dah…

Okay, balik hal ehwal keluarga ipar aku nih… Bapak ipar ada company sendiri. Dia buat Steelwork – traditional steelwork dan sekarang ni abang ipar aku dah bekerja dengan bapak dia sebagai Design Engineer (agaknyalah)… Kira sekarang nih hidupnya mewah jugaklah – gaji naik, semua naik… So kirakan when it comes to wang, dia tak ada masalah. Tapikan, tunangnya tuh, asyik merungut ajer pasal tak ada duit padahal diaorang pakai join akaun (walaupun masih bertunang, diaorang tinggal sebumbung) duit tuh mestilah melambung-lambung. Apa orang kata, tak cukup pakai/makan? Entahlah… So setiap kali jumpa or kalau kita ajak nak pergi mana-mana dia rungut cakap tak cukup duit, not enough money… Not enough money kebabai engkau! Aku tengok diaorang tuh sihat walafiat, lepas tuh selalu keluar makan malam memandang kan si Lucy tuh tak masak – mana tak cukup duit kan? Entahlah, ni kira bangsa tak tahu nak bersyukur lah kan? Ada duit lebih tuh hulur-hulur lah sikit kat mana-mana yang memerlukannya… Macam kita ker (kwang, kwang kwang)… Tapi itu duit dia, hak dialah. Dia nak buat apa dengan duit tuh dia punya pasallah kan?

So kita berbalik pulak hal yang bapak mertua ku yang budiman nak bincang dengan anak-anaknya… Bapak mertua ingin James join syarikat dia as a Civil Engineer in charge in some of the projects and dia pun ingin tahu bila James dapat join dia? Kalau boleh secepat mungkinlah. Aku dan James kita dah discuss dan masa yang paling sesuai sekali untuk dia join Bapak dia ialah apabila dia balik dari Singapura…

Alhamdulillah, syukur Alhamdulillah kehadap Illahi terhadap peluang yang diberikan ini… Ialah, dah lama jugak dia tak happy dengan his recent company sebab-sebab yang tak dapat aku explain dan dengan offer yang diberikan ini, aku bersyukur sangat kehadap Illahi kerana memberikan dia peluang yang keemasan ini (sekali lagi)… Alhamdulillah… So, there will be 2 division in Bapak’s company… Satu division untuk business partner dia and satu division lagi untuk dia dan anak-anak dia concentrate… Ialah, bila bapaknya dah retire, bolehlah dua beradik nih take over the company… Yang aku harap sangatlah mudah-mudahan ada jugak kerja kosong untuk aku join sekali… Kee Hee Hee!

Ialah, aku ni pun tak lah happy sangat kerja kat sini kan so kalau ada peluang as a Secretary kat opis bapak dia itu, apa salahnya! Nak experience? Hah! Aku ada 8 to 9 years of secretarial/admin/invoice clerk… semua aku ada experience… Kerja kat construction site? Iskh! Aku ada pengalaman! Jangan main-main ha! Aku ni pengalaman banyak walaupun muda… Ewah! Eksen gituk kan? Tapi, kita tengok jelah! Mana tau rezekei aku hanya di recent company aku… Tapi takpe kan? Rezeki yang halal ada di mana-mana… Kita kena bersabar jelah! Aku pun mengharap juga yang rezeki lagi satu tu pun kita dapat kecapi! Alah, tahu tahu jelah rezeki apa – rezeki dapat anak… Itulah rezki yang paling besar aku nanti-nantikan… InsyaAllah… Kita tunggu jelah apa yang Doctor Gynae tu akan perkatankan…
Selamat Semua!

Beauty & The Beast...

2006-03-01T10:48:00.000Z

As a child or even as an adult, I’ve not been blessed with beauty (meaning attractiveness, good looks, captivating appearance and when society look at you they go wah or aaah or wow... aaawooooo). In comparison to my sister, I’m like down there and she’s like up there. She was and still is the beautiful one even when we were young as toddlers as babies as teenagers. Her enchanting smile, the sparkle in her eyes everytime she give that ever enthralling smile, her gentleness and kind-heartedness and sensitivity… She’s the perfect girl any parents would love to have and I adore her as well as she was and still is the most wonderful sister a girl could ever have in her life. Jealous? Never! I’m never jealous of her, why should I? But instead I’m proud to be her sister.

I was a chubby child and when I say chubby I don’t mean overweight or obese, just very round face with very round tummy and always have funny hair. I remember when I was about 8 or 9 years old, I wanted to perm my hair like sis. I wanted to feel what it’s like to have permed hair. We had our hair permed at this Nyonya’s beauty salon – or was it my aunt that did the perm for us? Well, anyway, sis permed hair turned out beautiful! Curls looked in place, very neatly and nicely done, all nice and curled up and springy, I mean she looked amazing and when it was my turn to reveal, it was ghastly! I hated it! I loathed it! I felt like running to the river and just drown myself… The shame, the horror… Why oh why do they invent this 'perm' in the 80s? It was finely curled and if you know how Maggi Mee looks like after it’s cooked, then that’s how my hair turned out – like curled up cooked Maggie Mee… There was nothing I can do. Mak told me that if I want to get rid of the curls FAST, I needed to wash my hair almost every day and every night, which I did – like frenzied! During that time, we don’t have and know the existence of a hair straightener so that was the only way that I could straighten my hair back to normal. I vowed to myself never in a million years would I perm or curl my hair ever again… Once bitten twice shy, heck it’s triple, quadraple shy!

Though I’ve never been blessed with exterior beauty or captivating smile and the lembutness of a lady (I’m more of a tomboy that time) I suppose one thing that I’ve been blessed with is my sense of humour. Believe it or not I’m a funny gal, so I’ve been told! Not blowing my own horn I tell ya, people tell me this thing okay!? One thing about me is, I just love making people laugh… they say I liven up the party – well, sort of… I make people guffaw, I make folks smile and I try to make people feel good about themselves (not in a dodgy way oteh?).

They say laughter is the best medicine and I hold that motto unfailingly… I love to laugh and I like teasing too (in an undamaging way) and I guess that’s why when you see me, you’ll notice that my face is round and my belly is round due to the cause of laughing too much… Sometimes I wish that I could be an entertainer – never mind what sort of entertainer, just someone who can make a difference, someone who can make people feel special… Hmmmm… doesn’t sound appropriate does it? Well you all know what I mean…

Anyway, what’s in an appearance, what’s in a beauty? The most important thing in life is how the heart works… You know, pum, pum pum… It’s how you potray yourself, your manner, your actions, your deeds, your sincerity to the people around you or even to strangers. I always believe that if you do good to others, others will return that goodness to you… Learn to love yourself before you can learn to love others… I never use to love myself when I was a teenager or a young girl, very self-conscious you know! I tried to be someone I’m not… I tried to be like my sister – prim and proper, soft spoken, gentle and tender loving… but I soon realise that I’m not her and I won’t be able to be like her coz I’m an individual… Though I am also a gentle and tender loving gal by nature… not really a soft spoken person though, the opposite… Accepting and embracing who I really am. Taking in any criticism with a positive approach. Criticism is good as you take it all into account and analyse it ourselves optimistically.

I learn from all the asinine mistakes that I made in the past and never to repeat the same mistakes again though it’s always easy to fall in that slip-up but don’t despair… Never give up hope…

I love my life at this moment and I am ever so grateful to the Almighty for giving me all that I have right now – my true Religion, my parents, my husband, my sister & Abg Ed, my niece & nephew, my PIL, my BIL, my old and new found friends, … I’m just blessed that I’m surrounded with people that I love and whom I hope will love me back for who I am…

So, who's the beauty and who's the beast?

What's Its Like?

2006-02-27T13:04:00.000Z

So who's to say whether they'll make it or not!
Who's to say that they are not right for one another and that cik anu binti manu is better?
Who's to say that what their doing is wrong?
Who's to say that their decision will be disastrous?
Who's to judge their fate?
Who's to say that they deserve what they get even though they deserve it but who's to say?
Who's to say that's the car or house for them?
Who's to say that they are acting stupid?
Who's to say this and that when they don't even know what they are on about?

I donno, you figure it out!

These slippers have kept me warm since last winter... They've done me proud, still intact, still in good condition kowing how I tend to abuse and amuse my slippers in the past and the coolest and most childish thing of all about this slippers are when you walk, lights appear from the stars... How cool is that? So, who's to say that I can't have this kiddie slippers? It amuses me everytime the lights appear and James always make sure that the lights are always working but hitting it hard on the palm of his hand everytime the lights seems to be disappearing! Like a kid again who gets excited over small things...

I find it hard to concetrate while driving now... Why you asked? Well, that's because whenever we pass those beautiful big houses along Shelf Road, they've got a FOR SALE sign above/under/infront of it and it tempt me to look... And I will go, "Wah! Look at that house!" and he'll go, "Look where you going! Concentrate will you!" and I will go, "I am! I am! But look at those houses!" and he'll say, "Too expensive, can't afford!" and I go, "Well, in June we can afford..." and he goes, "Hmmmm... we'll see!" and my heart and head goes, "Yaaaahhhoooo!!!! Yipppeeee!!! Yippy doo dah, yippy di deh! Adeh!!!!"

That's basically our conversation when in the car... You realise that you've got not much to say when you're in the car and it's early morning.... Oh well!! Sing with me!

Just for Laughs...

2006-02-20T14:29:00.000Z

I'm an IT idiot so therefore I don't know what's the proper URL or something to use but I'm sure when you click on it, you'll be able to see the movie! Enjoy it my friends!

http://www.grapheine.com/bombaytv/play_uk.php?id=768380

Valentine's Funfair

2006-02-20T13:17:00.001Z

Last Saturday, we drove up to Leeds to the Valentines Funfair. The place was swarmed with teenagers but also families, couples… Mike and May were with us. It was extremely freezing but we had a terrific time… I almost lose one of my contact lens since the weather was so dry, my contact lens decided to just pop out from my left eye. Well, it didn’t literally popped out by itself but when I blink my eyes, it just dropped. Lucky for me James noticed where it landed and picked it up before any of us stepped on it … I didn’t bring any solution with me, so with no choice I gotta use my saliva to wet it. Disgusting I know but it got to be done… I pop it back in and was able to see clearly again… Phew! What a relieved! How were we to get home if I can’t see since I’m the one who’s driving? But all was okay… I could see, I could see!!! Not a pirate no more!

So, after that mini eposide, we proceed to our next ride which was the House of Fear… All I can say that it was a waste of £4.00 for the both of us coz it was the lamest ride I’ve ever been on and we both were not even frightened – James wasn’t bothered going on the ride but since I insisted, he just went along with it.

We rode on few other rides and I must say after all that, it made me so dizzy that I felt like vomiting… but thank God that didn’t happen. The place were bustling with people screaming at the top of their lungs, and babies crying, children talking loud with excitement and despite the cold, everyone seems to be enjoying themselves! We tried to win some prizes on the games but only managed to get ourselves a small teddy bear from throwing the darts which was fine by us… Don’t want more teddy bear coz we have enough of them at home…

I think we were there for just about 45 minutes coz there’s not many rides that May wanna ride on and that most of the rides consists of spinning around and around and around… Which will make you dizzy for sure! We got on the Ferris Wheel – that’s very romantic and we could see everything from up there… It was awesome!

By nine, we decided to head off home as we were all freezing like mad and felt like our noses were just about to drop off and we’re all not bothered with the rides anymore…

Had a fantastic time and will do it again soon!

PENGUMUMAN...

2006-02-17T11:49:00.000Z

Wahai Sahabat-Sahabat Bloggers ku Yang Budimn, Yanf Berbudi Bahasa Dan Yang Cantil Molek, Cute Mute dan Yang Jejaka tuh, Kacak Dan Gagah Perkasa...

Kepulangan Hamba Ke Tanahair Tak Lama Lagi, Boleh Dikira Dengan Jari-Jemari mu yang Halus Bagai Sutera (Kalau Tak Cukup jari, Pinjamlah dari Anak-Anak mu atau Suami, Sedara Mara ker...)

Ku Pejam Mataku, Ku Celikkan Matakau - Cak, Cak... Cak, Cicak? Siapa Tuh? Hantu Ker?

Hari Berlalu Tanpa KuSedari - Eh, Rambut Dah Panjang Lah... TIMOTEI!

Hati Hamba Bergedap-Gedup, Ketap-Ketap, Pam, PuM, PAM... Macam Ketam...?

Tak Sabar Rasanya Uuntuk Menatap Wajah Mereka-Mereka Yang Ku Sangat Kasihi Dan Rindui Dan Pendami Dan Yang Tak Ku Kasihi Jugak (Nah Kau! Lama Aku Tunggu Nak Kasi Penumbuk Ini.... HA HA HA HA HA!!! - Evil laugh please)

Tanpa Hamba Beat Around the Bushes (sakit hoooR.. kena duri and all that... kesian kita), Hamba teringin Sekali-Kali, Berkali-Kali, Beribu-ribu lemon sekali ingin Bertemu, Bertentang Mata, Menjeling-menkeling, Duduk Bersebelahan dengan Sahabat-Sahabat Bbloggers Yang Menetap Di Singapura Itu...

Hamba Rasa Sesuai Sekali Jika Kita Bertemu - Untuk Mengeratkan Lagi Silaturrahim... Bawaklah sekali Partners Mu, Anak-Anak Mu Kalau Kamu Mahu... Bawaklah... Bawaklah... Jangan Segan Silu.. Lebih Ramai, lebih meriah kan?!

Jika Semua Setuju Menuju, Hambar Cadangkan Tarikhnya: 20 APRIL 2006

TEMPATNYA: Aaaahhhh...Yang nih susah sikit sebab hamba tak tau nak pilih kat mana yang sesuai! You all lah yang paling arif sekali dalam hal ehwal makan memakan nih kan... So, pilih lah, pilih... Hamba serta suami hamba cuma turn up ajer!!!

Jadi Kalau Sahabat-Sahabat Ku Rasa Tarikhnya sesuai, Bagitaulah Kat Kita Dan Jika Perlunya Kita Tukar-Menukar Tarikh, Bagitau Kat Kita Jugak... Boleh Kan??? Meh Kita Adakan Satu Diskusi... Bergusi-gusi!!! Kwang, kwang, kwang....

Okay, dah habis dah... Tak kan nak memanjang kan! Akan ku menanti Jawapan Kasih darimu wahai bloggers.... *kenyit* *kenyit*

PS: Bahasa Olang Puteh Coming Soon...

Monday yang tak Indah Sangat...

2006-02-13T14:23:00.000Z

As what Bunkerangs mention on her blog, bila kita nak tulis our blog, susah betul nak dapatkan idea, tapi bila tengah membasuh ker, masak ker, idea mencurah-curah macam waterfall… Bila duduk mengadap komputer, satu habak idea tak menjelma… Pikiak punya pikiak sampai pening kepala… hee! Hee! Tapi taklah sseteruk gituk kan… Sekali lagi, Mj nak cakap pasal cuaca di negeri orang ini… Iskh… Bilalah agaknya MJ dapat get use to this weather… Sejuk satu macam ajer sebab tulah tak sabar MJ dan James nak pulang ke tanahair ku, Singapura! Agaknya dah fed up you all kan dengar MJ on and on about trip back home! Apa tak excitednya – dua minggu babe! No, make it 17 days babe! Tak lah as lucky as Ely who will be going back to Singapore for 1 month in July… Untung sekali dia dapat tinggal lama-lama tapi kira Alhamdulillah dapat jugak balik kan? Jangan khuatir, August nanti kami akan pulang ke Singapura sekali lagi selama seminggu untuk hadirkan diri di majlid perkahwinan teman karib ku… Cewah!!!! Hati ku sungguh riang dan gembira….

It was a lazy weekend for us… Didn’t do anything exciting but just went for a walk with James just around our area and to the park… It was as usual a cold and dark and miserable weather/day… We decided to just walk for half an hour and head back home soon as possible seeing how chilly it was outside!!! Back to our warm comfortable sofa… Made drinks for ourselves – a cup of hot cocoa with cream for him and a cup of hot, hot, hot coffee for me and the spare duvet we used it to cover our cold legs. We decided to watch Ocean’s Twelve (again) on DVD and after that will be the Smokey and the Bandit Part 3 DVD…

Today after work, we’ll be picking up Mike & May and shoot off to Bradford to watch a film and also have our tea at Nandos… I better not eat too much as I have my weighing on Wednesday and gotta make sure that I behave…
It’s Valentine’s Day tomorrow… The whole world is celebrating this day but do we really know what this Valentine’s Day actually means? Why do some Muslims celebrate this day knowing that there’s no significance to it all? Hmmmm…. Ponder, ponder….

Mimpi Yang Aneh?

2006-02-09T15:53:00.000Z

“…We regret to inform you that your ballot application for the 2006 BUPA Great North Run has been unsuccessful. All successful ballot applicants have until midnight 23rd February 2006 to confirm their application, after which if there are any unclaimed places a further ballot will be drawn. Should you be successful in any further ballot we will inform you by March 1st.”

I was so looking forward for the BUPA Great North Run and to receive that e-mail this morning really dampen my spirits. Oh well! You lose some you win some right?

So last night I dreamt of MiMi, my very old school friend who went MIA on us. I couldn’t bring to mind exactly what the dream was about but all I knew that she was really up in arms with me for some reason. For what reason I don’t know but this wasn’t the first time that I dreamt about her…

The very first time when I dreamt of her was few months back and I told R about it. She told me that if I dream of Mimi three nights in a row it means that she’s either in trouble or calling for help (I think) but no, not 3 nights in a row. And yesterday, she entered my dream for the second time... Dum dum duuuummmmm. I think we were at R’s wedding and seeing her I walked towards her hoping that I could talked to her and wanting to give her a hug but then she gave me the cold shoulder… and after that the dream just ended coz I awoken by the feeling of coldness and realised that James took my share of the quilt! Patutlah kesejukan!!! Of course I yanked the quilt from him - my share of the quilt and gave him a bollocking which in turn all I heard from him was a grunt… Hee! Hee!

Well, what do you expect when its like 2 in the morning! Need to persuade him to get a King Size bed since he said that I took most of the space – which I don’t agree at all!!!! What to do, my butt little bit big so need more space! Sorry darling!!!

Buat Aku Terpinga-Pinga...

2006-02-05T21:00:00.000Z

Gambar kawin kami 4 tahun yang lalu. Masing-masing nampak kurus ajer tapi sekarang, oooi kusmangat, naik badan!!! :D

Tunggu punya tunggu tak sampai-sampai surat temu janji dari doctor untuk aku ketemu gynaecologist. James suruh aku telepon Doc Brown hari ini, tapi terlupa pulak… Mungkin Isnin nanti baru telepon lah!

Kira-kira dua minggu lepaslah agaknya, aku pergi jumpa Doc Brown untuk mendapatkan keputusan ujian darah tempoh hari… Rasa gerund/gementar adalah sebab tak tahu menahu apa yang akan diperkatakan oleh Doc Brown… So far Doc kata darah okay… Adalah dia jelaskan ini dan itu but then tak take in langsung asalkan doc kata semua okay, kira lega rasanya kan? Then at the end, Doc Brown kata:

Doc: There’s one thing that you should know. You might have what they call it Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome… It means that one of your ovaries seems to be overcrowded with cysts so that’s why you have an irregular menstrual cycle …

MJ: Come again Doc? Are telling me that one of ovary is not functioning? What happen then? Will everything be okay? Anything that I should worry about?

Doc: If you’re trying to get pregnant, it might take you a longer period of time due to the cysts attach to your ovary…

MJ: Oooh… But possibility I can have children right?

Doc: Oh yes! You can get pregnant and like I say, it might just take a longer period… When do you and your husband plan to have a baby?

MJ: Well, we are planning this year or next but…

Doc: Well, that’s all right then… Don’t worry, what I’ll do is, I’ll make an appointment for you to see the gynaecologist and from there they will do a scan and just see how far the cycts have spread… At this moment, all you can do is just take good care of yourself, take some supplements and just wait for the appointment letter that I will post to you. All right?

MJ: Yah, okay… Thanks Doc! See you later! (Much, much later…)

Jadi, begitulah sedikit sebanyak perbualan antara aku dan Doc Brown… Tak terkata aku… Mula-mula, ingat tak lah teruk sangat kan? Mungkin ini hanya spekulasi Doc ajer, tapi bila aku balik opis, terus aku check on the internet untuk mengetahui dengan lebih lanjut apakah itu Polysctyic Ovary Snydrome (PCOS). Di bawah ini ada aku attach kajian aku: (In Summary) -

Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS) also known as Stein-Leventhal syndrome or functional ovarian hyperandrogenism, is a complex endocrine disorder associated with a long-term lack of ovulation (anovulation) and an excess of androgens (male hormones, e.g., testosterone).

The disorder is characterized by the formation of eight or more follicular cysts of 10 mm or smaller in the ovaries, a process related to the ovary's failure to release an egg (ovum). PCOS is one of the most frequent causes of infertility.

Symptoms may include various menstrual problems, hirsutism (excessive body or facial hair), endocrine abnormalities, acne, obesity, infertility, diabetes with insulin resistance or hyperinsulinemia. Even if specific symptoms are not causing an immediate problem, PCOS can have significant long-term effects, including diabetes, heart disease, and endometrial or breast cancer, so seeking treatment is critical.PCOS treatment decisions depend on symptoms, age, whether or not the patient wants to become pregnant, and the degree of ovarian, adrenal and androgen excess. First line management includes diet modification, weight loss and stress reduction since obesity and stress can contribute to androgen excess. Other management and treatment approaches are directed at addressing specific symptoms (i.e. acne, excess hair growth, menstrual problems, infertility) and at preventing long-term complications, given that PCOS can begin in adolescence or earlier.Some PCOS symptoms (acne, menstrual irregularity) may affect body image and self-esteem, and may be of concern, especially in adolescent girls.

More Info On PCOS

Aku bagitau Lady Bos perbualan antara aku dan Doc Brown dan dia kata kawannya juga ada mengidap PCOS seperti aku… Katanya, kawannya telah menjalani operasi untuk mengeluarkan cystsnya tujuh tahun yang lalu dan selepas operasinya, doktor memberikannya ubat untuk dimakan setiap hari… Doktornya kata dia boleh mengandung selepas operasinya dan selalu makan ubat yang diberikan tapi tujuh tahun telah berlalu dan apabila dia pergi check up, doctornya kata dia infertile, tak boleh ada anak… Bila aku dengar ajer cerita itu, aku dah cuak! Alamak, abih macam mana nih?

Aku beritahu James bila aku pulang rumah dan dia kata jangan assume itu dan ini lah, tunggu jer surat dari doctor dan lepas itu baru kita boleh decide what to do… Betul jugak lah katanya... James kata berdoa jelah kepada yang maha Esa semoga ianya tidaklah begitu serious dan jika memanglah kita tidak boleh dikurniakan anak, we’ll cross that bridge when we get there…

Kakak kata takper, jaga kesihatan, makan supplement, makan ubat tradisional, berdoa kepada Allah swt… Kita yang merancang, Tuhan yang menetukan semuanya kan… Aku hanya boleh redha dengan apa yang diberikan olehNya…

Aduis! Sakitnya kena Tag!... Hee! Hee!

2006-02-05T19:09:00.000Z

4 Jobs

This was my first ever job at the tender age of 16. Worked In McDonalds for about 6 months and strangely I actually enjoyed it tremendously. I so enjoyed just interacting with customers and make them smile… I know it sound corny but it’s the truth!

Second job, well this was when I was 17-18. Left school, didn’t actually go poly or college or anything coz am just not smart enough, so decided to start working and landed a job in a maid agency company as a Clerk Assistant – not glamourous I know but it’s work – money coming in the bank! Hee! Hee!

Third job… hmmm…. Not a great job but the money was good. Let’s move one…

And my fourth and final job was my permanent job in a construction company. It lasted 6 years before I actually move to the UK

4 Movies

Last night we watched the Goodfellas on DVD. I’m never into Mafia film, but this one, I was actually glued to the telly… It was really good – bit gruesome on some part but overall, it was fantastic.

Pirates of the Carribbean – my all time favourite Film. Great actors, great story, great settings… all just excellent!

Men In Black I & II – what can I say about this movie? It just crack me up and I just like Will Smith

Last but not least the Ultimate movie for me will be Ice Age…

4 Places I’ve Lived:
My Parents
My sister’s
My In-laws
My Brother-In-Law while we were waiting for our house to be sorted out!

4 TV shows I Love to Watch (This is bit difficult!)
Invasion
Law and Order – Criminal Intent
The Monk
CSI Las Vegas

4 Places I’ve Been on Vacation
(Now this is bit hard coz so far up till now, I haven’t been to many places so….)

Fuerteventura – Canary Island: Our 1st ever vacation together as husband and wife… Yes, seriously! What to do kan??!!!

Tioman Island – Just a short vacation with James

The United Kingdom

4 Blogs I Visit Daily:
Blogger 1
Blogger 2
Blogger 3
Blogger 4

4 of Your Favourite Food
Fish & Chips
Calamari
Sambal Prawns
Nasi Lemak

4 Places I’d Rather Be
Be with my family & Love ones
My house
At the beach – sun, sand & sea
In bed with…. Ehem, ehem!

4 Albums I can’t live without:
Misha Omar’s Albums
Siti Nurhaliza – All of her albums
Man Bai – Just one album that I have right now in the UK
Last one is bit tricky but if I have to choose one, I will choose – Faith Hill

4 Vehicles I’ve Owned
Red BMX Bicycle when I was 12 years old
Mountain Bike from my mum
Vauxhall Corsa from James
Vauxhall Corsa from James

4 Tagees
Sassy Momma
Madness In Vain
OOD
Nong

Wah! Begitu Lama yah?!

2006-02-02T14:09:00.000Z

Dua hari lepas, aku tak pergi kerja... Sebabnya? Sakit - demam panas dari hari Ahad sampailah hari Selasa... Demamnyer tuh taklah teruk sangat kan cuma demam biasa jer! Teringat lah dulu bila time kat sekolah kan bila kena demam jer oooooiii, bukan dua tiga hari tetapi masuk dua minggu! Agaknya kali nih demam sekejap ajer sebab tak nak pergi kerjalah tu agaknyer! Tapi sekarang nih Alhamdulillah, sihat walafiat! Siap boleh pergi Aerobic lagi semalam and yang paling best sekali dapat lose 1 more pound! Walaupun tak banyak tapi dapat jugak aku turunkan berat badan ku yang montel ini. E'eh - tapi kan kalau sakit mesti berat badan turun macam nak rak kan? Entahlah! Agaknya sebab hari Selasa bila rasa macam sihat giutk kitaorang decide to makan luar - Villagio, an Italian restaurant... Pikir punya pikir bila tengok menu, decide to makan Penne pasta with Mushroom cream sauce... Yah! Selera makan ku telah kembali dan sungguh enak sekali Penne itu! Huagh! Huagh! Huagh!

Selasa lepas dalam boring-boring teleponlah kaka kat rumah. Ely jawab telepon:

Ely: Hello Auntie! How are you?

MJ: Kakak! I'm fine! Buat apa tuh?

Ely: Tak ada apa2... Makan keropok! Auntie lagi buat apa?

MJ: Auntie tak buat apa2! Auntie kat rumah sebab Auntie demam, tak pergi kerja!

Ely: Oooohhhh....

MJ: How's school kakak?

Ely: Hari ini tak school lah auntie1 Monday, tuesday kita off! Auntie tak off ker?

MJ: Kat sini kitaorang tak celebrate CNY! Christmas ada lah! Okay kak, panggil ibu boleh? I will talk to you later okay?

Ely: Ibu lagi sembahyang. Auntie! Ely sekarang dah boleh sembahyang tau, adik pun! Ibu ajar Ely sembahyang. Hari-Hari Ely sembahyang!

MJ: Alhamdulillah! Baguslah tuh kakak!

Ely: Auntie sekejap eh! Ibu dah habis sembahyang... Bye Auntie!.... Ibu, Auntie Lirin!!!

Setiap kali bila cakap dengan anak sedara nih, senang sekali hati ini... Ialah, maklumlah kita ni kan belum lagi ada anak, so kirakan tumpang kasih gituk lah! Haii! Hati ini tak boleh sabar untuk menatap wajah Ely dan Harith of course mak, ayah jugaklah! Tak lama lagi! Lagi dua bulan terus dah boleh berangkat ker Singapura... oh Singapura! Sesiapa yang nak kirim apa-apa bagitau lah kat kita nih okay??? Nothing ridiculous lah harap2!

Perbualan antara aku dan kakak lasted for at least satu jam setengah! Ialah, macam-macam kita nak plan bila aku dan James balik Singapore... Nak rent chalet lah, buat kendurilah, gatheringlah, pergi Johor mungkin... mungkin jugak singgah Kuala Lumpur memandangkan aku dan James tak pernah jejak Kuala Lumpur... inilah masanya kan???! Jadi, tempat mana yang menarik bila pergi KL eh? Maklumlah, walaupun dah tinggal Singapore 25 tahun, jejak KL tak pernah you! Pergi KL cuma bila time budak-budak lagi and melawat rumah sedara ayah - itu jer! Tapi since ayah dah tak rapat lagi dengan keluarga dia, jaranglah kita pergi... Takper, akan ku menyiasat!!!!

Any suggestions?

Unsure

2006-01-27T15:00:00.000Z

I’ve been feeling despondent these last few days ever since I left the doctor’s office 4 days back and what he told me left me with a pang!

Not knowing what it really was somehow makes things worse. I decided to look it up on the internet when I got back to the office, just to be sure that I’m not upsetting myself foolishly for no particular reason and that I’m not just hypothesizing what he told me.

What I found out wasn’t what I expected – I expected something positive, encouraging from my finding – telling me that it’s all so common that there’s a straight forward cure for it and that… and this… and all… but there wasn’t any of those… Well, there was a bit note of hope but then again it wasn’t really promising. I supposed until I get things properly checked up then will I know for sure whether there’s something to be anxious about or not.

I’ve spoken to James and close friends about what the doctor told me and obviously they were sympathetic and concerned. Nothing to be alarmed they say – which I agree lock, stock and barrel!

In the meantime I’ll just pray to Allah that everything will be okay and whatever that I have to take in hand in the future, I will face up to it in a calmly fashion and always know that no matter what happens, Allah knows best! :-)

Confirmed!

2006-01-23T21:33:00.000Z

It’s been ages since I write anything here in my blogspot…

I’m glad to say that it’s all booked now. Flights back to and from Singapore. It will be a 17 days holiday back home. Not enough for me… not sure about James but absolutely not enough time for me to catch up with family and friends in just 17 days. I need a month – a month to stay in Singapore and just meet everyone… But that will do for a while eh?

I hurt my hip today and I don’t know how that happened. I woke up, took a shower, got myself ready for work, had my breakfast and when I stood up from the chair, my hip just started to hurt… I drove James to work and it just got worse but I just thought maybe it might get better when I reached work and have a seat… Walked around a bit in the office and the pain ease down a bit, so I was bit relieved…

The parcel for James didn’t come today and I am really worried now. I’m just so afraid that the parcel might be missing somewhere but let’s hope not coz what I got him wasn’t cheap at all!!! So, let’s hope that it will arrive tomorrow…

Gotta lose another 2 pounds till Wednesday so hope I’m able shed those pounds!!!

REPLIES #1

2006-01-19T11:06:00.000Z

First and foremost, I would like to apologise to all bloggers who left comments on my previous entries. I’m not sure why, but whenever I want to leave a reply to your comments clicking the icon doesn’t seem to work. I keep clicking the “comment” but nothing appear – no comment box no nothing and so that’s why my last 2 entries I couldn’t reply your wonderful comments on my comment box… So people, any suggestions to what I should do or what I’ve done wrong? I’m at my wits end! I feel really guilty for not being able to reply your comments…. And so, I shall reply it here temporarily. Do bear with me with this:

We’ll Do It Together (Dated 6th January)

At 7/1/06 1:13 AM, Ely said…
go back to singapore in april...hmmm, are u going to stay there til july to wait for me? Hehehehe

At 8/1/06 6:37 AM, hartini said…
*teehee @ humping and pumping exercise* :D Hope u r having fun at Manchester!! :) It has been gloomy here too - been raining non-stop since last nite. I love it!! Feels like the weather in London! Like I've been there to know...! *LOL* Hope u have fun at that exercise program too! And all the best! U can do it, girl!! ;)

At 10/1/06 5:11 AM, apples said…
Hmm that's funny, thought I had my post up here earlier? Did you get it? I was mentioning about taking note of that Sun and Moon Song in Ms Saigon? Ok girl, have a good day there and Wishing you Eid Adha!

MJ REPLY:
ELY: Malangnya we don’t have that privileged to stay in Singapore that long (wish I could). It would be nice kan? Next time jom kita plan sama-sama

HARTINI: *wink* done and dusted! Had a great time in Manchaster but unfortunately the seats in the Theatre are wee bit small and we’ve got to like squeeze our butt to fit in it (not that my butt is huge or anything).

APPLES: I think I did notice it but am not sure… We were sat at the high end away from the theatre and I must say that the sound system wasn’t that good and also, the main character (was it Kim?) wasn’t good at all and didn’t thoroughly enjoy it that much though… The only best part was the Male Character – good voice good bod too!!! Hee! Hee! *wink* Will definitely get the DVD of it though just to see the difference.

REPLY #2

2006-01-18T11:25:00.000Z

Difficult To Forget Dated: 10th January

At 13/1/06 3:20 PM, hartini said…

At 15/1/06 9:08 AM, Apples said…
heh, cute:)

At 15/1/06 3:14 PM, suriyati said…
mamijarum, I went to your multiply blog.. I felt in love with that blogsite though.. It's so clean and everything there.. I mean the layout. I thought of opening one there.. ;)

At 17/1/06 2:25 PM, bunkerangs said…
alah hartini..obviously i think z is gay..hehehe....or he had a crush on r..anyway, mamijarum..thank you for dropping by my blog..hehe..i saw your gambar then i realised that you were on suriyati's multiply list and i pun click you as my friend..hahahah...takper kiter seme blog buddies.. *G*...

i have been coming here often too..via suriyati's and hartini's. best nyer you kat UK..wish we were there now...not that it's not nice here..but as they say..grass is always greener on the other side :)wel, ni long nyer comment ni..i was wondering..like me..do you sort of try to look for past ex-es you know..i do..to just find out what they are up to and all that. sometimes when going back..i would wonder if i would bump into them and if i did..what would their reaction be and all that..hehehe...but of course..must make sure i look good lah..hahahaha

MJ REPLY:

HARTINI: That was such a bitter sweet experience, wasn't it... Does bring back some old memories of back then when I was young and oh so naive - makes me feel so stupid then *hahahaa* I was wondering, was Z gay?? Just wondering why he re-wrote your letters... and he falling in love with R... that is strange!! Maybe Z was the one who was in love with u???? and didn't want to share u with R. Possible? :)

Don’t we all feel that way when we were young eh? Well, as long as we learn through experience not to do it again than it’s all good!
I think that time he was gay but I just didn’t realise it! He likes girlie stuff and never like to hang out with the boys during recess time etc… Now, he has become a transverstite (right spelling?) Met up with him years ago and was totally traumatized when I saw him/her… Make-up, tight woman blouse, tight pants (trust me you couldn’t see anything DOWN there!)… I feel sorry for him though!

Apples: I know! He ( R ) was really a sweet boy!

SURIYATI: By Now I guess you’ll be using that site more often eh? I know what u mean! That site is a lot easier to manage (especially for someone like me who is an IT Idiot) and nothing complicated! I love it too and I love what you did with yours!!! Keep it up!

BUNKERANGS: What does BUNKERANGS mean? Bunking around? Hee! Hee! Thanks for dropping by my blog too! You are right! Z is gay – kesian dia…

I got your blog from Suriyati too thanks to her of course!!! Yup! U are right but somehow over here I don’t see much grass… Better than in Singapore I guess despite the weather, everything being expensive here… Still, grateful that I’m given the opportunity to stay here, thank to the hubby! Hee! Hee! *wink* *wink*

I did try to but only manage to fid R and not the rest… Ialah, just want to know what they are up to kan? Nothing else… We must look damn good and show them we are doing extremely well and looking good…

Another One?

2006-01-17T14:51:00.000Z

It’s James 27th birthday tomorrow and what I’m getting him for a gift is no longer a surprise. Why? Well, since I paid that thing using my Switch card and bought it over the internet from Play.com, it shows in our bank statement what’s been bought and from where and how much.

Gosh! Is there no privacy anymore?! That’s why I want so much to open my own account but since I don’t have my driving licence nor my passport with me at the moment (still with the Immigration for my Visa), there’s no chance at all I can open a new account. I apply for a credit card from my bank recently but since I have no credit history they rejected me and so I’m credit card-less. Not that I need it anyway but I find it very convenient especially if I want to purchase things over the net and not only in the UK but also in the US or Singapore or anywhere in the world. On the other hand, it’s a good thing also coz I’m not reliable when it comes to Credit Card. I’m afraid that I might over spend or do something foolish with it so it’s better not to have that ever evil Credit Card.

“It’s just another birthday,” is what he says when I asked about how we should celebrate it. “I don’t really care to be honest.” Hmmm… If that’s how you feel lovey, then should I care too?

Of course I will! I’ll still cook that special meal for him – birthday meal, though it’s gotta be done after I come back from the Conley class. I wanna miss the class but he insist that I go – you pay for it so you got to go – well that’s what he says!

I think this time I kinda bought too many presents him! Compulsive buyer they say! Just can’t get enough purchasing stuff for him! I don’t dare to look at the bank statement – afraid that what I see might give me a heart attack but I know that I overspent. Will have time to recuperate – let’s hope so!

And Thursday, we’ll be going to a Chinese Restaurant with the Ma & Pa and Brother-in-law & fiancé in Keighley. Will definitely have vegetarian coz that’s all that I’m allowed!

Hope it will be a nice one!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DARLING DEAREST

REPLY #3

2006-01-17T12:22:00.000Z

Another One? Dated: 17th January

At 17/1/06 8:25 PM, Ely said…
Happy Birthday James!!! wish i was 27 again :( MJ, you're like me, shared account, no surprises. unless u use cash to buy the gift, he will know how much u took out but not where u bought his stuff.

At 18/1/06 3:29 AM, suriyati said…
Mamijarum,When you apply at your bank ask for pocket check with visa logo so you can use that. It works the same as the credit card but you tak bayar the high APR and your don't get credit card line just your normal account line. Just my thoughts. ;)

At 18/1/06 5:37 AM, Yaslam said…
So James share the same birthday month as me MJ. We January babies are like that...we said we don't care about our birthdays but deep inside we really hope that people will notice..heh..heh...heh. :D

At 18/1/06 11:12 AM, Apples said…
Happy B-day to your hubby, MJ!Psst! Hey some tips from me for those married and living overseas. 1) Try not to have shared account. If you do, have another account of your own..very important. Best if you have account at home, too!(in Singapore, I mean)2) Enough money, buy your own house in Singapore. Good investment at least for yourself. 3) Forget about Credit Card (I'm getting rid of mine!) Try Debit Card instead!(the one which Suriyati mentioned)4) Know the law well!eeks you hubby might kill me for this! But you need to be a bit smart jugak kan;)

MJ REPLY

ELY: Thanks for the wishes! He thoroughly enjoyed his gifts I bought him. Too bad no pictures were taken coz battery flat! You look 27 my dear!
Time for us to be that independent woman and open that account for ourselves!!! Hee! Hee!!!

SURIYATI: Good Idea, will ask them that when I go to the bank to open up an account for myself.

YASLAM: If your birthday has passed – HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY but if it’s not then HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!! Yah Lah! You January babies are hard to please – oh hang on, is that just men IN GENERAL that are just sooo difficult to understand and pleased?

APPLES: Thanks for the wishes and Thanks for the tips… It’s good to have a shared account but it’s even better I guess if I have my own account too so that I’m able to declare it as my money and not OUR money… Can I buy my own house in Singapore even if my hubby is a non-Singaporean? We were talking about buying a house in Singapore and then rent it out but not sure if we could! More info please?!!!

Difficult To Forget

2006-01-10T10:04:00.000Z

I was only a young naïve 10 year old girl who don’t know better. That was the age where I felt liberated, I felt that the world was a beautiful place to live in… The age where I felt that I could be the most dazzling, magnificent girl in school or even in the planet. I was free from care, I was in love or so I thought that I was. I suppose it’s what you called puppy love. Which I’m most certain that a lot of people in this planet one way or the other had their first crush, first puppy love that they cannot forget, ever!

“…and they call it puppy luuurrrvveeee…

My best friend Z was a little bit of a softy and when I said softy, I meant a soft – he’s like a girl, he’s more than a girl, he’s just like what we Malay call a Bapok. He likes to hang around with us girls so much that we thought that he’s turning into a girl himself but during that time, we didn’t know what gay or lesbian means so we just thought that he’s just weird and probably because his siblings are all girls, so he’s more comfortable being around girls. His dad was a police officer and his mum was an actress in Singapore and those days, she was a popular and a first-rate actress and probably still.

Z and I we were like two peas in a pot… We were like… sisters (with a tune)… We hang out together, we go swimming together, we will have sleepovers (which was hardly ever coz my dad hate it when I slept at others house. He always says that why would you want to sleep in someone else’s house when you have your own house? Macam tak ada rumah sendiri gituk nak tidur rumah orang!) at his place and just we’ll just chill and do those girlish stuff and also we’ll do our homework there. I like going over to his place coz his apartment was bigger than mine and he has a balcony and those times, if you have a balcony, you are rich! Well, not mega rich but you’re sure well off! I’m always in awe whenever I stepped into his house. It’s just so spacious and so comfortable and I just felt privileged to be there… It may not be a big deal to others but compared to our 2 bedroom flat, it was a huge deal to me… Of course, I befriended him not because his parents were rich or he has a famous mum or that he has a bigger house than me or that he always gives me his teddy bears… not at all! We just get along really well! I get really offended when some of the kids called him names and I always try my best to defend him coz I know he’s not that and I know it’s just a phase that he was just going through… (Boy was I wrong!)

I couldn’t really bring to mind how it happened or from where he came into view but he just did and how he took my breath away and I bet not only my breath, all the girls breath in that school! (No air to breath!!) Well they say first love last forever don’t they?

It’s a bit vague on what happened between the three of us… Z, R and me…

I remembered that the moment I saw him, I was head over heels… His hair was sandy brown, fair skin, big bright brown eyes, sharp nose, luscious, beautiful lips and was the most good-looking boy I’ve ever seen… and not to mention that he’s of a mixed race and that time it was really rare to find them breed! (And no, that’s not the reason why I married my husband or that I have a thing about Caucasian – it just happened!)

It took me A LONG time to speak to him. Z was the middle boy… Or should I say the meddler? Somehow Z knows R from somewhere and they ended hanging out which also means that I hang out with them too… But I was really shy with R (but I wasn’t known to be shy even as a kid so this one is exceptional). Every time I’m with him or near him, I got tongue tight. I just kept mummed and just couldn’t utter a single word… But then, he started to write letters to me (which I still kept until now) and of course I replied to him and our postman will be Z always… I think it did took us a long time coz in the middle of me admiring and oogling over him, he got himself a Chinese ‘girlfriend’ and I was left disappointed but not crushed coz somewhere along the line I always thought that we were meant to be together.

Despite all that, we started to develop this friendship (that I call lurrve on my part and probably on his part was just a normal friendship) and we decided to meet up at our local swimming pool (I considered this as our first date) as we all love to go to the swimming pool after school for a swim (and you thought that with our frequent trip to the swimming pool that I have become this great swimmer – but no, still a crap at it!). In one of his litter he wrote that he’ll ring me and we’ll meet up on Saturday (I think!) at so and so time and I replied by giving him my home number and told him I was looking forward to our first unofficial date… So I waited, and waited and waited and when Saturday came, nothing! I was disappointed, my heart was crushed! How could he lie to me? What happened? I called Z and he said that maybe something came up and before we put the phone down he gave me R’s number… But it was a wrong number… Hmmm… why did he give me a wrong number? Oh well! I must dialled wrong. Later on, I found out that he did go to the pool with Z which I find that to be odd considering that Z told me R went to Johore or something but in the end I found out that Z told R that I wasn’t coming, that I back out…

So, to make story short, ultimately we never really had that date and I found out that Z has been reading our letters first hand before actually passing to us and it appears that my letters to R, Z re-wrote everything and sign off as me and R never got my letter…

One way or another, he was the one who’s in love with R and that he doesn’t want us to be together and so he wrote all this nasty things in all the letters that I wrote to R… No wonder we had a ‘lover’s tiff’ during that period… Well, not really a lover’s tiff but just that we didn’t speak to each other and I always get this cold shoulder from R. I couldn’t understand why he was up in arms at me or what has been said but R just wouldn’t talk to me…

Then one day, I found out that R was no longer studying in our school. Rumour has it that he went back to Malaysia to continue his studies there or something like that… I don’t know.

Anyway, I can still remember the weird dreams that I had of him and I still have all the letters that he gave me. I still kept it back home in Singapore. Just some of my memorable past that I thought I would like to cherish. I never threw away all the letters that he gave me or any letters that my friend and I wrote to each other… I guess, when I grow older and bored, I could just pick those few letters up and read them through and just reminiscing those good times that I had when I was young and naïve and a teenager. Does this make me sound like a granny? Well, I’m just a sentimental being you see!

Last year, I went in the Friendster website and just type in his name and voila! R’s name popped out and he’s THE guy that I briefly knew 17 years ago – now was that a coincidence or what? Of course he still looks good and well built and attached… and… gosh… what a small world!

We'll Do It Together!

2006-01-06T12:10:00.000Z

It’s been a gloomy morning today or any other day for that matter! The weather girl says that it might snow this weekend which is great cause I am looking forward to that! I love snow, though I don’t really appreciate the coldness nevertheless, we can’t have everything go our way can we?

I got back to work yesterday and I must say it’s good to be back! Not that I don’t enjoy those holidays given to me but if you’ve got nought to do and nowhere to go, it does get a bit boring.

I decided to tell my bosses about our trip to good old Singapore in April yesterday and to my amazement, they were all right about it! I was expecting a bit of hesitation from them when I told about the holiday, but nothing. Instead they were thrilled about it seeing that I didn’t get the opportunity to go back home last year. Anyway, that’s all done and dusted!

The weekend is upon us again and tomorrow, we will be going down to Manchester to watch Miss Saigon – now that will be good won’t it? Thing is, Mikey received a text last night from L stating that it would be nice to be invited…

Ooopps! We forgot to ask them if they would like to watch Miss Saigon with us this weekend!! Well, considering that they ALWAYS have plans over the weekend whenever the gang (which is all of us) ask them out, we just assume that they might have plans this weekend too… So, she’s not pleased with us at this very moment… Well, we couldn’t care less! No! Kidding only! Of course we’re not that nasty and Of course we feel guilty about not inviting them – I know I do! But what can we do? It was a struggle for us to get the tickets for tomorrow considering that it’s a popular show and tickets were sold like hot cakes – honest!!! Anyway, I wonder how I’m gonna face her on Wednesday eh if she’s still mad at us – even me!?

Thing is we decide to join the Rosemary Conley Diet & Exercise program at Coley near where I live. What it does is it gives you an idea of which diet is suitable for you and they have different type of exercise classes that you can participate and they also do a regular check on your weight! We’ll have our weigh in every time we go to the class and a bit of pep talk on diets etc and then to business –the Aerobics exercise!

I go to motivate Lucy and be her diet partner/buddy. We plan to shed those pounds together and ready to be a knock out for her wedding in 2007 and also to help me lose those pounds before I go back to Singapore in April and also before R’s wedding… It will be worth it!

Also since it’s only once a week (Wednesday), I decided to take up another sport that I’m starting to love - Squash session with my lady boss every Friday starting next Friday of course, so this will be great I tell you! Healthy lifestyle for me!

And James? Well… he’s not really into running or aerobics or going to the gym and furthermore he says that he gets enough exercise from working on site, so he’s not really that bothered actually! Healthy eating is all he’ll get from me then!!! And of course with the ‘humping and pumping exercise’ (to put it bluntly and not in a crude way! *wink* *wink*) it will help him lose those pounds too wouldn’t it?

Sorry it Took this Long!

2006-01-03T20:13:00.000Z

Wow! 2006 already eh? Out goes the the old - 2005... It's already the 3rd January and I've got only about one more day before I go back to work... Looking forward to it? I suppose... Nought to do at home so going back to work will filled up my time and also I'm able to lose those holiday, Christmas, New Year pounds...

So, how long has it been since my last entry? Well, first and foremost, I apologise to all my friends for the late entry in 2006... The reason?

Well, firstly, we didn't get back from Skipton till the 30th of January and found out that computer was not functioning so, unable to log in. On the 31st we went to a New Year's Eve Party to celebrate the coming New year with friends and family... Therefore, at long last, I can sit down and write my entries...

Anyway, today, Lucy, Sheila and myself went off to York for a shopping spree and boy was it a shopping spree... Never realise how biy the City Centre in York was! What did I buy? Bought myself a red flowery dress for only 10 pound (it's on Sale) which I will wear to the Miss Saigon show in Manchester this Saturday and a sweater for only 5 pound and loads of books for my reading pleasure... We spend almost 4 hours shopping - walking around The City Cente and just exploring - the shops that is...

At long last! I found a pair of boots that fit me perfectly considering that I've got huge calves and it's always difficult to get the right pair... And so for only 25 pound (it was half price) I manage to find myself these lovely pairs of boots :-

So, whatya think? It's great for the winter isn't it? BUT when I got home, apparently I've got a similar pair of boots and with the same colour! I tell you, before I bought it, I was actually contemplating between a dark brown and this one and I chose this one obviously! But never mind, this will be my 'outing' boots!

So, this is just part of the City Centre in York that I manage to take... The battery was low

Anyway, I had a great time - we all did and it's well worth the journey! We didn't drive up to York but instead we took a train from Brighouse to York coz it will be very expensive for parking and also none of us were that bothered to drive that far actually...

So anyway, right now I am totally knackered but before I go, I'm gonna post some New Year pictures we took at a party... And Yes, I do look larger than life and yes I do need to shed those excess pounds and yes... my face is as round as a ball... but nevertheless, enjoy the pictures!

Oh, and also, did I tell you what I get for Christmas from my in-laws? Well... it's something unexpected and really, really, AWESOME...

2 return tickets to Singapore to surprise my parents! Can you believe it? I can't believe it, but they did bought for us the plane tickets!!! They did, they did!!!! We've got to use the tickets within the 6 months period, so, we plan to take our holidays and fly back to Singapore in April... and again in August for R's wedding for sure!

So, my dear Singapore friends, shall we meet up for a proper Singaporean Buffett that I miss soo much????

Will let y'all know the EXACT date!!!! And If any of my cousins read this, PLEASE don't tell your mum coz I know it will get back to my parents... This is going to be a surprise for them and I am ecstatic!!! I am sooo looking forward to this!!! But only sis know about this as I wanted her to take some holiday from work...

SINGAPORE, here we come...

PS: Apple! Thanks for the tip... We are actually planning take my parents and sis to Langkawi while we're out there in Singapore and with the information you gave me, it will really help alot! This is going to be great!

Hee! Hee! These are some of the books that I bought today...

Yipppy dih doooo dah, yippy dih yay!

2005-12-20T14:45:00.000Z

This morning, I was called in the office. My mind was racing with questions after questions – what did I do now? Is it bad? Is he going to tell me off? Boss, please don’t spit on my face, but just speak… I don’t really need the shower coz I already had one at home… Okay, that wasn’t nice… but the truth can never be denied – don’t you think? Yes, he’s a spitter spatter when he starts talking… Ewwwwww!!!

So, anyway, there I was, facing Mr BC… “Right, I’m giving you the P45.” Then he start to laugh… Okay, I think he says P45 – but doesn’t that mean I’m fired? Over here, when the employee give you the P45, it means that you’ve been kicked out of the office, vamoos (donno how to spell it so, this will do!)… Get outta here! Get your ass out of this office… But actually, he was just pulling my leg… Ha! Ha! (Not amused laugh)… Damn funny lah you! (NOT!)

Okay, okay! On with the show…

“Good news for you MJ. We’ve decided to give you a Bonus.”

If you are a woman, I could kiss you but since you’re not, all I could do is hug myself smiled gleefully!

“Oh! Thank you so much!” I said as calmly and as a matter of factly as I can.

“We’ve decided to give you £500 bonus but unfortunately it’s taxed. Also, we’ve bought you a present. This one, not taxed at all. You see, since the £500 is taxed, we decided to give you a present as a bonus too which is not taxed!”

“Golly, golly gosh! That’s so generous of you! Ah! You shouldn’t have! Thank you so much!”

“I’ll bring it in on Thursday… And also, I’m sorry to say this but you’ve got to come to work on Thursday and Friday. Strangely, it will be busy and that’s why we really need you to come to work!”

Aaaah! And there it is… There’s always a catch isn’t there?

Oh well! At least I’m able to bring the holiday days forward to next year… More holidays for me then!

Bought some well wishes cards for family and friends back in Singapore, so will send it to them tomorrow…

On top of that, my friend text me today and asked us if we would like to watch Miss Saigon in Manchester on the 7th January which without hesitation I accept the invite!

We were supposed to watch it last year for my birthday, but we missed it so this time, definitely will go for the show!

And on top of all that, that, that - naturally, I am and will watch TAKE THAT live in Manchester Arena in March (or is it May?) – now why would I want to miss that?

All I need to do now is find people to go with me! Any takers?

Start Again

2005-12-19T16:29:00.000Z

I've decided to start cross stitching again and so, over the weekend, bought myself these patterns over the internet. In all, it costs me about £28...

Arabian Woman (small frame)

Time Frame to do this: Donno! Maybe 3 months? Maybe Less? This is for me? Need to think... Who should I give this to?????

(Cooking)

This I will give it to my Mak to hang it in the kitchen & once it's all done will frame it nicely... Might take me a year, knowing how slow I can be, but by God I will finish it!

(Watching the Trains)

And this is for James uncle, Uncle Dennis as he likes train, so I will stitch this for his Christmas present next year... Yes, I know it's too early but kowing me, I might give him in Christmas 2007 instead! Hee! Hee!

Random...

2005-12-18T14:34:00.000Z

So that's my father-n-law. I know its cruel to take a picture of him while he's sleeping but I just couldn't resist you see! It's just hilarious to hear him snoring away, and like I say, I just couldn't resist taking the picture... He's a very nice man and a wonderful father-in-law!

Took this during the Great Yorkshire Show... How cute is that eh?

The Lily that I received from my Parent's-In-Law for our 3rd anniversary. Beautiful!

It was a long wait to the Starting Field! It's the Race for Life...

My lucky number...

In loving memory of...

Seclude

2005-12-16T23:27:00.000Z

Exotic Selection

2005-12-16T20:47:00.000Z

Another Friday, another day, another night by myself. Chilling in, watching Simpsons and later on will watch Rush Hour 1 & 2 on DVD that James bough. Help myself to a brownie that I made few days back and top with with Double Cream - delicious! Soft Vanilla Ice Cream would be nice, but didn't buy some, so double cream will do. The window cleaner came around to collect his fee - that's done and over with, but I still owe him ₤1.60 as I was short of change. I tell you, this window cleaner could be well over 30 - maybe even 40 but he sure is fit as a fiddle and just look so good looking... Shhhhh! Don't tell James I said that... Hee! Hee! He comes around once a month to clean our windows and Friday night will be his 'collection' night.

So anyway, I bought myself a box of Twinings Infusions Exotic Selection Of Fruit Flavour Tea Bags.

It include mixtures of Pear & Guava, Pink Grapefruit-Mandarin &amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp; Lime, Orange- Mango & Cinnamon & Mandarin & Lychee – very exotic don’t you think? Right now I’m drinking Orange, Mango & Cinnamon tea. It’s absolutely gorgeous and uplifting! You feel refresh and just tastes excellent! You can taste the orange and mango but not so much of the cinnamon and it’s also caffeine free. You can add sugar or honey but not recommended to drink it with milk! Eeewwk! Won’t taste right at all I tell ya! So, go grab one and try it!
You’ll love it I tell ya!

James out on a company's night out and so, as usual, just me, my slippers (shown above) and my teddy!

Received a Christmas card from R today! It was unexpected and I was thrilled! R, if you’re reading this, thanks a million! Your card is on its way!

Tempting Enough?

Its 2006 - Another New Year!

2005-12-16T09:37:00.000Z

I started packing all the clothes that needed. GC bought me this huge luggage which also consist of 2 other luggage – a medium and small one. She said it’s a going away present from her. I was chuffed, I was touched by her gestures. When I arrived home with the luggage, mak & ayah were taken aback! “Besarnya! Takkan engkau nak bawak semua baju pergi UK?” Ayah asked following a nervous laugh. The thought of me leaving for good was just about to hit him but Mak was as always, cool and collective. “Baguslah bawak beg besar ginik! Macam-macam boleh letak kan? Betul ker GC belikan? Baik nah dia tu eh?”

I started packing my clothes and other stuff that I might needed and that will remind me of home. The space was massive! I could smuggle my niece and nephew into the country with just this one bag!

While packing, I got to thinking. Will I survive there? Will I ever make any friends? What will happen to me? What will I do if me and James argue and I need to talk to someone? Will I cope? Questions after questions kept rolling in my mind. I started to get nervous, panick, sweaty! Is this really what I want? Can I pull this off? I heard stories – not good, all the bad ones. Stories where when a woman leave her country and family to be with her foreign husband, she won’t be allowed to leave or see her family, her life will be destroyed, but what am I talking about? he's not like that! He’s a loving, kind gentle human being. He wouldn’t, can’t do those things, or could he? They say people change after marriage, so will I see a side of him that I never knew existed? Am I just being paranoid? YES I am!

18th January 2003, I arrived! My new home, new life, new country. Exciting things are just awaiting for me! Nervous? For sure! Excited? Oh very! It’s thrilling not knowing what’s going to happen!

And so my new life was about to begin…

And two years on, I’m still here, surviving the cold weather, the new job which I utterly starting to loathe! Got my driving licence, applied for an indefinite Visa to stay here longer (why?), house still there but still not decorated properly, car already battered and bruised by yours truly, James much happier on the new site and apparently I will get a Satellite Navigator for Christmas which were to be a surprise and James not suppose to tell me (which he didn’t) but I guessed it and he didn’t deny it so, when the time comes, I got to act surprise! James's not convinced that I can act surprise but I’ll show him an Oscar winning performance! I’ll show him what a good actress I am!

So, in 2 weeks time, the new year will come and out goes the old year!

New resolution? What resolution? Every year everyone make new resolutions. Some stick to it some don’t. Me on the other hand, I know that if I make new resolutions, it’s likely it will not be resolve! So, next year, just like this year, I will go with the flow.

Another year another new chapter to complete. So many things that I want to do next year but the main thing that without doubt that got to be done is flying back home to Singapore to see my beloved family and be there in time for my friend’s wedding! And also, to try and make MJ and James juniors! Yes, you heard it right! Juniors with an ‘s’. If possible I want 4 but in reality, even with just 1 I am humbly grateful! For that I can’t wait!

I know things will never go to plan, but I’ll pray hard that this will.

Next year, I have decided to join the Halifax Thespians and to get involve with the theatre production - That is if I’m being chosen. I’ve always love the theatre though I’ve never been involve in one, but I know that it’s for me. Maybe yes, maybe no but we’ll see! Wait for this space!

In the year 2006, I’ve got to make sure that I make an effort to meet people and get to know more people and not be a loner. 2 years that I’ve been here, the only friends that I made were virtual friends which is great, no doubt about it but unfortunately, I’m unable to go out with them for dinner or movies or just hang out! Therefore, I must open up to opportunities and look for a new job! Be more assertive and friendlier than I was before!

In 2006, I must read more books be it about Literature, History or Religion – anything to widen my horizon! I must start to use my creativity and learn to draw, knit, create a mosaic, collage work… I must go back to my art skills that I have left behind. I loved to sketch, and so I must start that again… Birthday wish (yes, I am thinking ahead) is for someone to get me a Cannon EOS 305 (I think it’s a 305 or is it a 350? Need to check on that one again!) Camera, coz I want to take up photography!

Also, I must make sure that I am more considerate, tolerable with James and to nag less… Give him more space and stop yakkity yakking when he’s trying to sleep.

So, with all that, I leave you with these questions:

What are your hope and dreams in 2006?
What do you think should change in 2006?
What will be your resolution in 2006 – go on, do share with us all!?
Will I ever meet you in 2006?
What will your new year be like?
What significant things do you hope to happen in 2006?

Go on! Tell me! I really want to know!

Ahhhh Choooo!!!!

Tired...

2005-12-13T15:22:00.000Z

These are the pictures I took while making the Christmas present for my in-laws. This was an in-complete work. Somehow I didn't get the chance to take pictures of the finished work... Maybe, I'll snap some during Christmas when the in-laws open it up!

Materials that I used were Cinnamon sticks & mostly different types of pot pouris and also coloured transparent leaves...

I made a mistake of cutting the sides of the cardboard when the pictures and stuffs were already pasted thinking that an idea would just pop out which it did in the end!

Bought a 19" x 19" frame with deep base and that's where I put my creation. Hope they like it! Pictures were of James and his brother when they were kids...

Promise will take the complete work with the frame etc on Christmas Day. Unfortunately, all the presents are wrap up!!!

So, what y'all think? It took me about 3 days to complete the whole thing - what with touch ups here and there and even At one point I thought it look crap but then I did some spraying here and there, add more materails on the side, bought more stuff and in the end, it's all worth it! It look pretty good! Hopefully the parents will like it though!

Ooops I did it Again (Badly!)

2005-12-13T11:54:00.000Z

And so it happened yet again. I injured my car for the second time in 3 months since I received that driving licence (yes, that!) and this time, it’s on the left side of the car just above the tyres/rims… whatever you call it… Dent and horrible scratch… Meaow!

First it was on the right now it’s the left - Heck! It’s even now isn’t it? How careless can I be? I knocked the bricks off the wall… That was the second time that the bricks was knocked off from it’s place. First, it was James who did it with his Peugeot and now, me… Mind you, the brick wall aren’t ours but the neighbour, so it seems we have to do some damage control… Oh and the neighbour came over our place last night and me being blur I just smiled and let him went on with what he wanted to say…

I have to admit it’s my fault… Totally my fault! Normally I parked the car closer to the right hand side giving ample space on the left but this time, since James parked it aligned in the middle, I didn’t realised how tight it was! The driveway is really very tight (for me that is) and so for the car to get in and out, you’ve got to be extremely careful and look both mirrors… It’s like you’ve got to move your head fast to the left and right so that you don’t hit anything but obviously I weren’t looking where I was going or where the car is heading, was I? This happened just as we were about to set off to work… It was a cold horrible Monday morning & we both were feeling that Monday blues and both not feeling too good and now this happened! What a nightmare!

I did look on my left side mirror (I think) and thinking that the coast was clear I reversed the car slowly, looking mostly right then left and that’s when I heard the sound that I dreaded to hear… the crunching sound – kkkrrreeeeeegghhhkkkkkk (however you want it to crunch!). It doesn’t sound good – DUH! You think?. I stopped the car immediately and at that moment was in a panic stage… I could see James standing at the sidewalk, looking utterly unimpressed! Shocked! Annoyed! Bemuzed! Horrific look all over his face!

Nothing major, just a scratch – ugly scratch… scratch that will cost money to repair that’s for sure but I was wrong! Seems like I dented the panels and it need a whole new work… this will cost about £400-£500… That’s it! No more luxury for me! Need to save me money to pay for this! Sigh! What a nightmare!!!! James says I can't go to R's wedding if we gotta pay for the repair!!! Noooooooo!!!

Seriously, I am not a bad driver! I drive well, only sometimes I have my moments but I am not a bad driver at all! The only problem for me is parking the car in the driveway (or anywhere for that matters) which always makes me nervous knowing/seeing how tight the space are… but trust me, I am not a bad driver! You will be safe with me driving the Vauxhall Corsa.

Besides that incident, the weekend was average.

Sat at home, do some cleaning, wash the clothes, watch some DVDs, wrap all the presents for the in-laws, went to the supermarket and did our weekly shopping and on Sunday, we went to the Pub Quiz to win some prize! Hee! Hee! We we got home from the Pub, felt like we were the one smoking 100 sticks coz damn do we stink from all that smoke! It was awful and disgusting! Prize now has increased to £201! The lot of us are itching to get that pot of money!!!

On a lighter note, I made a present by hand for my mum & dad in-laws? Will put the pictures once James sort out the computer at home!

What I want for Christmas is for someone to give me £500!

A Minute more And Counting...

2005-12-08T16:44:00.000Z

Wanna post but then my minute has gone and I'm going home now! Till tomorrow! :D

Let's Play A part in Saving Lives...

2005-12-02T08:46:00.000Z

Weather’s not been good to us these past few days or even weeks. Yes, we know that we will get the odd showers or even snow now and again, but this year, it arrive too soon! Too soon I tell you! I presume that it must be raining in Singapore coz I always have this thinking tanking that when it snow in the UK it will rain in Singapore…

Christmas is Around the corner... No, I don't celebrate this festival, but what I do celebrate is the gifts... Receiving and giving of it. People have start sending Christmas or New Year Cards to friends and families and what we receive from our Client today, is totally a different thing... Instead of sending us a Christmas Card, they send this e-mail instead:

“Dear Friends,

The Season’s Greetings to you and your colleagues.

At this festive time we turn our thoughts to friends and family and wish that they are well, enjoying good health and fortune, and looking forward to spending quality time with their family.

We also become more aware of those who do not have such good luck, or have much to look forward to, other than poverty, hunger or disease.

Here at (Company’s Name) we are also conscious of the increasing volumes of waste and the consequent environmental damage created by the annual frenzied orgy of Christmas card exchange.

Therefore, in line with our commitment to operate in an environmentally responsible and sustainable manner, and in common with many other caring organisations we shall no longer be sending cards to all our customers, clients, friends and preferred suppliers. Instead we shall be making a donation of equivalent value to Save the Children UK or to Sponsor A Child Worldvision.

Our action does not of course detract from our sincere wish that you enjoy a truly happy festive season, and that the New Year brings all you wish for yourself and your loved ones.”

So my dear most charitable friends and families Have a heart… Dig deeper in your pockets, piggy banks, monkey banks, whatever banks you have and make a donation to save lives of thousands of children in the UK and if possible, all part of the world! Trust me, you'll feel elevated after making that donation...

Her's Bigger than mine, I know, and???

2005-11-29T16:50:00.000Z

So how should a wife respond or react when what she saw written on the husband’s mobile contact “She got big tits.” I know who he’s referring to and I’m not denying that she doesn’t have big tits coz she does. Not big but massive but then why does he have to put that under his contact? Can’t just he put her name? I mean does he have to remind himself that she have big knockers? I mean c’mon! I don’t put on my mobile, “He got big dick” for my male friends do I? Not that I know that he got big or small dickie but you know my point right? So, why? Of all the nickname to give her, you’ve got to use all your energy on those index finger of yours to key in 16 characters and that’s including the space… Tell me why? No! No! No! Before you even asked me, I am not making this into a big deal but I’m just bamboozled, bewildered, perplexed, mystified, at a total loss that’s all! Jealous? Why would I? Or should I? Do I have a reason to be jealous? You say it’s all nothing, it’s just a nickname, for fun… Okay, so I hear what you’re saying and I believe you coz I trust you and I know you won’t betray my trust…. But still, why? KENAPA? Wei Sher Mah? I karate you then you know I mean business eh? Eh? Eh?

You know what? Forget it! I’ll just leave it behind me… No point arguing about this. As long as it’s all harmless and it’s just a name, then there’s nothing to worry about!
So, you like your Christmas present? I know we don’t really celebrate it but I love giving and receiving presents… Foosball table baby! Just for you! It completes the empty space in the living room! I like it, you like it, the whole world like it! We can have our friends over for a game or two and not forgetting feeding them with sumptuous meals and deserts! Good One!

Endless...

2005-11-28T16:13:00.000Z

Wonderful to meet you!
How do you do?
I’m doing all right, thanks.
And how do you do?
I’m fantastic darling! Just wanna kiss you and hug you all night long…
How do you do?
Fabulous, fabulous… never been better! Got my bonus! Woo Hoo!
How do YOU do?
Not so good, weather’s crap, feeling crap! Wish I’m dead!
And how do you do young man?
Uhhmm… so far so good. Getting there, getting there! Need a fag badly! Wish the boss is out so I can sneak out for just 2 bloody minutes!
How do YOU do my little angel?
School sucks! Hate it! Wish I’m an adult so that I don’t have to go to school!
How do YOU do mummy?
The baby’s kicking non-stop but other than that I’m feeling splendid! Baby's due in 2 months!
How DO YOU DO?
Well, despite being hassled by the Betterware people, I’m feeling groovy baby!
How do you do dear?
Feeling dreadful at the moment… need to buy Lotto lucky dip to win that million pounds!
How do you do?
It’s a miracle that I am still alive after what have just happened! Never thought I could escape that dreadful disaster…
How do you do?
I’m feeling keyed up actually! It’s snowing again!
And how do you do?

I just wanna go home! I do! I do! I do!

Are you Available?

2005-11-25T17:39:00.000Z

It decided not to snow today. Gave us a bit of a break… Scotland, Ireland, Wales – tough luck guys! Enjoy those lovely white snow! 10 inch snow is it? Maybe my information is wide of the mark. Nevertheless, it looks pretty steady today.

Before I leave the office, thought I should update the blog first as the computer at home – well, let’s just say that its malfunctioning and someone did something to the computer and now its all karpoot! No, I’m not the one to be blame this time, it’s him, it’s all James fault…

This is something that I think is bit inappropriate to write but I feel elated, in seventh heaven and so the need to put it in here is necessary for me! Last night, we laughed, we teased, we joked, we tickled, we had such a great time in bed… No, nothing sexual but just merely teasing each other (not sexually) and telling stupid jokes to each other, talked about this and that… We make funny noises, we played games, we talked about the future, he spoiled it by farting after that, then he tried to squeeze my pimples (not that many but like Hartini, he jusr loves squeezing thise spots!). And after all that he turn to his side of the bed to read his Dan Brown book and I turn to my side of the bed to read my Michael O’Connelly book.

It somehow manage to put a smile on my face the whole day today just thinking about it.

Happy, content, ecstatic, delighted!

We both can be such a kid sometimes! The way we talked, the way we behaved… it’s just like a 9 year old boy teasing a 9 year old girl (in a weird way)…

And today, the bosses have decided the company will be close on the 22nd of December until 5th January 2006 which means that I’ll be back to work on the 6th of January. Is that a fortnight? Lets count…. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6….. 15 days if you include Saturday Sunday. So 15-2 = 13 days total… Bit of simple maths for everyone! Like Homer said: Doh!

And So, I decided to text this exceptional lady and asked her what she’s doing on the 22nd of December and if I could like drop by and meet her in London. She say she have to check what she’s up to on that day which I do not blame her coz it is kinda surprising isn’t it and unexpected! Well, I hope that she could squeeze me in her busy schedule knowing how popular she is (hee! Hee!) It will be great, no not great, it will be smashing marvellous, tremendous to meet her and her family (if she so allow me to!)! Since I’m there, I thought of meeting another lady that I haven’t spoken to for a very long time! It feels like forever but somehow it felt like forever when I first spoke to her on the telephone! We used to talk on the phone almost every day but something happened and it the conversation stopped! I was really disappointed but I just hope that she would want to see me before Christmas if she’s not busy could just squeeze me in her busy schedule also….

While I’m down London, I must, I must make a point to meet these two very distinctive and exceptional ladies! Just wish that they would feel the same way as I do! Okay so if before Christmas is improbable, then what about after Christmas? 28, 29, 30? Ladies? Any takers?

And also not to forget Doc Naj – Scrubber, when will I be able to see you? Anytime sooner? Heck why not me & you go down to London together and meet this Lady? Just a thought!!!
Take care y’all! Have a wonderful weekend! I know I will!!!

It's Short & I Like It!

2005-11-24T11:43:00.000Z

Undeniably, Today’s weather will be wintry showers for the whole day and tomorrow, if you’re lucky, in all probability it will snow! What? Snow in November? Now, that’s not right, is it? Rumour has it that this year they say it’s going to be the worst winter ever in 10 years… So not looking forward to it - Well, not really actually not looking forward to it, but am looking forward for it to snow, if you know what I mean…

So, James is at home SKIVING off from work... No, not really. He decided not to go to work coz his stomach is playing games with him and also he’s not looking too good... Me, I did thought of not coming in to work too as I don’t feel really well too – back ache, stomach churning, feeling nausea, headache… that kind of thing but considering that I’ve got piles and piles of work to do, put that thought away and just go to work and be a good employee!

Oh! Did I mention that I had my hair cut short? Short - above the shoulder, close to the ear (length wise). I must say that it sure makes a hell lot of difference! It doesn’t look that bad at all and no more messy hair! My hairstylist went away for a holiday, so I had no choice but to settle for this striking pink hair girl, with half shaven on the side of her head stylist to cut my hair… Can’t say she did an excellent job on my hair but it’s not too bad and it will do…

Thing was, I asked for a short layered and she just gave me short, short with no volume, no nothing and with no layered and since my hair’s thick, the end of it looks like straws… It was ghastly, so, as soon as I got home, without more ado, I gave it a good & proper wash and blow dry it and tadaaaa, there you go! It looks just right - It doesn’t look bad and no more straws! Loving it! Loving it! Feel so sexy and so light and so good and no more mess!

James like it, though he says that it’s too short and it looks funny and it makes my face look rounder than before. Somehow it’s more obvious now that I have a round face… Uhhmm… thought you knew that by now? Oh well! You can’t please everyone can you? As long as I’m pleased, then that will do just fine by me!!

Missed

2005-11-21T13:28:00.000Z

I've missed out soo much on the blog and I definetely got to catch up... Past few days, haven't been myself lately... Could be the time of the month, could be due to the fact that I'm such a crap driver that people actually are afraid to be in the same car with me! They think I'm a maniac but honestly I'm not! James says I'm not a bad driver but I have my moments. Blonde moments? No... Brunnette moments... I'm such a klutz and I realise that I have fear for Roundabouts... They confuse me. I donno which lane I should be when I get to the roundabout. I asked questions, always unsure and if this continues, I might endanger myself and my passengers... Read the signs, know which lane you want to before you reach the bottom... Be alert always... Damn it! How does it have to be so hard!

Got myself into trouble last Friday... Scratched the car and was in a minor accident... Not with anyone but just me and the driveway! Hee! Hee! Again, I was being careless and not paying attention. I'm okay but the care, well, not doing so good... I managed to pulled the Bumper out of it's place! I was panicked and quickly rang him up! When he saw what I did, instantly he gave me his piece of mind and all I could do was stood there agreeing with him and when he's done, he tried and fixed it... Miraculously, he fixed it but the bumper still needed to be screwed together to secure it... Heck, if I did anymore damage to the bumber, it might cost us £500 or more for a new one!

So, first accident out of the way... That's it! Learned My lesson!

Oh! Before I forget, road was slippery this morning and at this corner, we skidded a little bit... Didn't hit anything but stalled the car... Drove extremely careful & drove at 10 miles an hour. Cars behind me saw what happened to me and they stayed way back from me!

Never Forget...

2005-11-16T09:39:00.000Z

All getting ready for the concert next day… But first the girls and I were on our way to the Airport. Chance of a lifetime! Only one opportunity! Nothing like this will ever happen again! It doesn’t matter if we lied to our parents, it doesn’t matter if we skipped school, it doesn’t matter if people say that we’re nutters, it doesn’t matter at all what people think! As far as I’m concerned, nothing else matters at this very moment! What’s important was we were able to meet the men of our dreams! The men, the boys, the males of every teenage girls dreams… Their movements, their bodies, their vocals, their fine-looking features…Oooh! Who wouldn’t wanna be near them and just screamed at the top of their lungs and deafened each and everyone of them.

“Girls! I think we need to make another banner! Look at those other girl’s banners! Damn, we’ve got to make this obvious in order for the guys to notice us!”

So, there we were, on our hands and knees, making the on the spot banner with markers, pens… anything that we can find! People looking at us in disbelief, judging us, thinking how mad these girls were… Some shook their head in disbelief some just smile in amusement… We were fanatical! We need them (the Group) to notice us! 3 of us vigorously using our creativity and talent to just create the most impressive banner ever! Hmmmnnn… Once we were done, we were full of glee! Now we have 2 banners – one on-the-spot banner which was massive and the other creative work banner we did it in class on every break... Classmates thought that we were very sad… Indeed we were but who cares! We love this group anyway! We will die for them (well not really actually, won’t go that far). We had this 1 or was it 2 meter lime green cloth where we put the band name in the middle and we sow, paste pictures of the guys as many as it could fit! It was great and till now, we still had that banner with us… well, actually, I kept it with me for safe-keeping… Wait till my kids get a hold of this!!!

Every girls in the country (exaggerating!) were waiting patiently for the Band to come out from the Belt… but some weren’t sure if the Group were coming out from this Belt or the other Belt… So, we decided to split. That time we don’t have pagers or mobile phones so you can imagine girls running back and forth giving information to friends/strangers…

So, there we all were, waiting patiently, singing their hits together loud and proud but we got to bring it to a halt cause security told us to shut up. But that only lasted for about a minute and we carry on singing in unison, broken…

A group of girls started shouting at everyone when they saw a figure and yes it was them!!! And we screamed like we never screamed before – ROBBIEEEEEE!!!! GARRRRRRYYYYYY!!! MAAAARRRRKKKK! JAAAASSSSSOOOONN!!! HOWAAAAARRRDDDD!!!! It was mad! It was Chaotic! It was utterly insane! The rush! Oh, what a rush! The screams, the panic attack, the tremors!!!! Oh this is all worth it!!!

As they walked towards us, we got excited! They pushed and pushed and screamed and just had no care in the world! Who cares if you’re asthmetic, who cares if you fell on your feet, I’m gonna get to them and touch them and make them sign my body – no, actually, just my autograph book… But coz there were just too many pushing and shoving, we or I didn’t get that chance! Oh but we saw them alright and how dreamy they were!!! We all go, “TAKE THAT! TAKE THAT! TAKE THAT!!!”

And guess what we frenzied teenage girls did after that? We chased them to the car park and saw a car sped of and we ran after it! WE screamed… a girl fell… oh! Should I just take no notice of her and pursue my mission or should I help her out? Girls were running passed her – even her friends didn’t realised that she fell… Oh what the heck! “You alright?” and to this she reply, “Heck yah!” And she ran off towards where everyone was heading – to the moving car!!!!

Rumours had it that they were staying at the Mandarin or the Marriot but we weren’t sure… We decided to go home coz we were already in so much trouble and in few days time, it will be their concert, another big day, so we will have energize ourselves tonight for the big one!!! Tomorrow we needed to be at the Caldecott Hill for their interview… Wait outside the Radio Station? Yes! That’s what we’ll do! Right after school… Don’t forget to pack extra clothes… Must change before heading to the Station… We got to be there as early as we could… WE couldn’t stop talking about what happened! We were so glad that we did what we did! It was all well worth it – damn sure!!!! And the Concert? It was exhilarating and superb! It was the most magnificent well worth $20(?… Can’t really remember how much I paid for the ticket) spent! Seeing them live and dancing and singing to their hits… it’s all well worth it! If I was given another chance to do it again, I would definitely grab that chance just for the fun and heck of it!

And guess what? TAKE THAT has just released their Hits Collection Album after all these years and apparently, they will have a concert next year! A reunion… now that I must go and see only this time will compose myself and won’t be running and carrying a banner… Heck! I’m an adult now, what do you take me for?

Laser Stick – check, banner – check, CD for them to sign – check, Lighter (for all the sappy songs) – check, TAKE THAT Scarf – check… what else missing?????

Loved Up...

2005-11-11T10:36:00.000Z

As I was looking out through the window, a man walked passed and I offered him a smile and in return he smiled back and gave me a wave and walked off… He's cute!

Outside, the wind was blowing furiously and yet I still see people do their evening run, wearing just pair of shorts (with thermal tights underneath to keep those babies warm - I think!), a thermal shirt and a pair of gloves to warm their hands… Crazy I say but that’s determination for you… Rain or shine if you love doing it, stormy weather won’t stop you from doing what you love the most!

It was warm inside… The radiator is doing it’s job – warming up the house. I rather be indoor than out. It’s too cold and I’m just not keen of the wind and rain but ironically I love the snow… I love it when the greens are all covered up with snow and all you see is whiteness covering the whole land, farm… It’s just beautiful! The only plus thing about the cold weather, I got the chance to wear my fancy smancy coat and scarf wrap around my neck and pair of comfortable cosy gloves… And not forgetting give me the chance too to buy new pair of boots!

I’m in love with him all over again! I see him day after day and keep telling myself how lucky I am to have him in my life. He saved me from my past… He cares and loves me though sometimes he don’t say it as often as I wanted him to… He’s a man of few words… Not a romantic soul/character but he can be if he wants to. I love cuddling up with him while we watch the telly. We will lie down on the couch (fits 2 people!) and just cuddle… His hands wrapped around me keeping me safe, making me feel warm and secure… Stroking me… Precious Moments.

We talked, we joked, we laughed… we kissed… at times no words were spoken but who need words when action speaks louder eh? I never thought that I could be so lucky. I never thought that he accept my love, he accept me despite all that I’ve been through… God works in a very mysterious ways… I’m just grateful…

Semalam Ku Bermimpi...

2005-11-10T12:47:00.000Z

Ingatkan semalam kita boleh pergi dating… tengok wayang lepas tu makan candle light dinner - that's the plan - lepas tu lepas balik kerja, kita fikir punya fikir punya fikir terus tak jadi… Aiiik! Dating pun kena fikir ker? Hmmmnnn… Dah dia malas dan Mami pun malas – dua-dua malas akhirnya tak jadilah… Mami pun rasa penat sekali semalam so tidur pun awal jugak – 9.30pm… Semenjak-menjak nih badan rasa sakit-sakit… Tak tahulah kenapa… Nak kata angkat besi tak, nak kata carry groceries pun tak sebab put in the trolley and straight to the car (ni dah kes Malas langsung!)– so angkat apanya… Nak kata kita work on site pun tidak jugak… So, jadi, kenapalah sejak Isnin lalu badanku asyik sakit-sakit… Nak pergi urut kot? Boss ada jugak recommend a massage at this Fitness Centre – only £13 for the whole body. Kira murah tu considering she always had her massage at this other place for £42… Now that’s extortion don’t you think?

Anyway, seems like my eyebrows need threading and need to get rid of those facial hairs that are slowing creeping out… Sigh! This is what you get for being VERY Hairy & I blame it all on my dad… Jangan marah ah Ayah! Hee! Hee! Tak lah hairy sangat kan macam a gorilla or something but still hairy… Enough about hairiness… Nothing to brag about is it?

Jadi hari ini akan pujuk dan rayu darling to go to White Rose Centre to get for lady boss Christmas present. Why so soon? Memandangkan esok dia akan terbang ke India and won’t be back till Next year January, ada baiknya Mami belikan dia hadiah sekarang kan?

Pondering sekarang apa nak beli untuk dia… Jewellery box? A Frame? A Scarf? Hmmm... Akan ku fikirkan apa yang secocok untuknya…

Ta Da!

How I wish...

2005-11-07T11:37:00.000Z

I wish and I pray, I wish again and I pray again… And again, and again, and again… I waited… I wait and wait and wait… Never ending wait and so we wait some more…

But will it ever come? Will it be given to us? Do we deserve to have it? Are we competent enough? Are we both responsible enough to take up this huge sense of duty? Is he ready? He did say he is but… he did say he does want it… he says this and he says that… I say that and this… Are you trying to tell us something? Questions after questions after another

We have to wait and see… wait and wait and wait all over again… I’m hating this waiting game but that’s the deal, we have to wait and be patience… Patience, yes, I have that… I have plenty of patience in my body, in my soul. Patience is a virtue and so we will endure it all.

They say expect the unexpected… but it’s just not possible for me to do that! I tried but it’s not possible! I always expect it but it never happen… Am I being just a stupid big girl? He says not to tell anyone until we’re 100% certain… I promise I won’t dear, I promise! We will give them a surprise but then dear, when?

Are we okay? We are healthy, we are okay… Is there any problem you think? Lets hope not darling!

I’m terrified actually. Terrified of what, I don’t know to be frank… Maybe afraid that we won’t be able to, maybe afraid that there’s something wrong with us, maybe afraid that we’re not meant to have what we want… I know you want it darling but not as much as I yearn for it!

I’m a desperado on my own… Desperate to own it, to hold it, to care for it, to love it… I’m just desperate to hear it’s cry, it’s laughter, it’s voice… I’m just desperate, anxious, eager!
I am, I am, I just am!

Kalau Suka Katakan Suka, Kalau Benci Apakan Daya...

2005-11-03T22:48:00.000Z

It’s late… Mengantuk sangat tapi posting tetap kena posting...

Right now, eating my chilled Peach Custard… It’s nice… It is coz I made it yesterday, and it does taste nice although there’s a waft of Almond flavouring on it… Yes, I know, it doesn’t make sense but as I was rummaging through my cupboard to look for colouring (found green & red… which one to use? In a Predicament!), I saw the small bottle of Almond Flavouring hidden behind the Nescafe Bottle and so I ask myself:

“Self, how about adding this Almond flavouring in the custard paste? A drop or a teaspoon?”

Thoughts were interrupted - Jamie came in the kitchen, “Whatya doing?”

Me: “Obviously making custard for me and you… gonna put chopped peaches on the bottom of these 4 brandy glasses and top it with custard and then chill it”

Jamie: “So, what seems to be the boggle?” Sniffing around and me like he always do… What? Do I smell to you? Do you really have to sniff me like a police dog looking for cocaine or weed or ecstasy or… whatever they call drugs nowadays… up my arse or something? Just because I haven’t taken that long shower doesn’t mean I smell…

Back to my custard…

Me: My boggle is… whether I should put this Almond Flava with the red custard paste or not! Sheesh! Such Quandary Again! Never add this before so donno how it’s gonna taste!”

Jamie: Risk it babe! We won’t die or get food poisoning just from the Almond Flavouring… Go on, take that BIG risk! Woooo!” He poked me… Why? Not a clue!

Me: Fine! But if it goes wrong, I blame you!”

Jamie: Yah wateverlah you £a%$... (This is not a bad word… This is the/a name that he likes to call me which I find inappropriate to include here, so as not to cause any anger or discomfort etc)

Me: Here goes nothing… (Trying so hard - just one drop but then… whoosh!)

Me: Damn it! Wooaaa! The smell is so highly-flavoured! That’s too much! BeeJeeweez! Apadah!... NO worries, it will be okay… Hantam jelah!

End result: Fantastic looking & taste absolutely gorgeous… Almond Flava bit over but will take note! It’s simple… Nothing too it! Even a 7 year old can do this Custard thingy… It’s a no brainier/brainer!

Sayangku, custard dah siap dah! Meh lah makan sama-sama… Kenapa dengan muka tuh? Macam kain buruk ajer? Apasal? Tak sedap ker? Alah! Baunyer jer tak sedap tapi apabila sayang scoop custard tu dan masukkan ke mulut sayang, mesti sayang nak lagi! Melts in your mouth you! Macam…. Macam… macam apa eh? Ala! Cubajelah! Kalau tak semua sikit pun jadilah! Nak MJ suapkan ker? Ngada-ngadalah sayang ni tapi, untuk sayang, apa-apa pun boleh lah! Macam baby jer, tak malu! Amacam? Okay? Aiik? Nak Lagi? Ha! Kan MJ dah kata, sedap, sampai menjilat gelas! Hee! Hee! Okay, dahlah! Sikit-sikit sudah lah! Jangan over sangat! Ada lagi 2 cawan kat dalam ais box tapi itu untuk besok dan lusa okay? Jangan tamaklah! Bila dah habis jangan lupa tolong cucikan pinggan mangkuk okay? *ku senyum tersengih-sengih* *blink* *blink* *blink*

Terima kasih daun keladi, lain kali MJ akan suruh cuci lagi… Haaaa! Haaa!!! Hee! Hee!!!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA SEMUA!!!

2005-11-02T16:20:00.000Z

It's already 12.20am there and it's Hari Raya untuk semua Muslimin dan Muslimah di Singapura! Semua mesti tengah sebok memasak sambil menonton rancangan-rancangan menarik di kaca telivisyen... Seronok sungguh!

Another 45 minutes before I knock off from work, run to my car, compose myself when I get in and dial those numbers... Counting the minutes... Another 10 minutes before we break fast here... What a world! What a difference...

NEWSFLASH!

2005-10-31T12:53:00.000Z

If one so desire to apply for a British Citizen, with effect from tomorrow, 1st November 2005, one need to know about the History of the United Kingdom and take an oath…

SoOOOOOO, how far back do I need to know about the History of UK? From the earlier Victorian Days? BC? AD?????

This will be very interesting! It will definitely benefit us all for sure!

This gives me an excuse to purchase the book of British History!

Like My dad Always says to me, “God Save the Queen!”

Tahun 2003

2005-10-31T10:46:00.000Z

“Beberapa hari lagi Syawal akan tiba… Banyak lagi yang harus dilakukan… Tak tahu yang mana satu...

Kuih-muih semua sudah siap! Mak kata tahun ini kita buat 4 macam ajer sebab tak larat nak bersengkang mata bakar kuih! Hee! Hee! Tak kisahlahkan?! Kita pergi Johor belilah kuih-muih yang patut! Borong semua kerepek-kerepek, kuih-kuih, kacang-macang… Ni kena cari kaki nih… Pergi Johor ramai-ramai borong kat sana sambil buka puasa… Belilah apa yang patut… pasu bunga, bunga plastik… Mesti Syiok… Geylang - Ada tapi semuanya mahal-mahal belaka… Selalunya kita pergi Geylang hanya nak menikmati suasana riuh-rendah di sana… Kalau ada yang murah-murah, mestilah beli kan?

Dinding-dinding that need paint dah cat dah! (bukan cat-kucing, tapi cat-paint) Rumah dah dibersihkan – berseri-seri! Langsir semua dah siap Cuma belum iron dan gantung jer… Itu semua akan dibereskan malam Raya… Tak sabar rasanya untuk menyambut Syawal yang akan tiba tapi sedih jugak sebab bulan Ramadhan akan pergi meninggalkan kita sekali lagi… Tapi Alhamdulillah, bulan/tahun ini dapat bersama mak-ayah yang tersayang...

Tahun ini adalah tahun yang terakhir dapat menyambut Ramadhan dan Syawal bersama keluarga… Sungguh sedih dan pilu sekali memikirkannya… Boo Hoo!! Beberapa bulan lagi, akan ku meninnggalkan ibu, ayah, kakak dan keluarga dan tanahair kuuuuuu untuk bersama suami tercinta di negara Omputih - United Kingdom…

Sedih… sebak… pilu… gembira… takut… gentar… semuanya dapat dirasai serentak... Haiiiszzzzz...

Walaubagaimanapun, meriah tetap meriah, Kecoh tetap kecoh bila membakar kuih dengan mak! Eh! Betul ker ayat ni? Bunyi macam lain ajer kan? Bakar kuih dengan mak? Alah! Asalkan maknanya dapat come across kira okaylah! Ayah pulak, biasalah, rileks, tengok tv… Bila Malam Raya, kecoh Ayah bagitau kat kita rancangan apa yang disajikan oleh Suria, RTM 1, 2 & TV3… Kita pun apalagi, potong-memotong timun, sengkuang, lengkuas, lobak, sawi, kentang, bawang dan lain –lain bahan yang diperlukan untuk masak, dihadapan TV… Hee! Hee! Itu yang syioknyer!!! Bukan sebab dapat tengok tv, tapi dapat duduk bersama Mak, ayah… ketawa, gembira… bersama… Mak pun dapatlah berehat sekejap dan menikmati “juadah” televisyen sampai 2, 3 pagi!!! Ha! Ha! Kadang-kadang mak kata mak stress bila kena masak pagi-pagi buta… Tapi aku cubalah ringankan beban dia seberapa yang boleh supaya dia tak stress sangat dengan menghulurkan bantuan yang seberapa boleh dan selagi diperlukan kan? Haaiiizzz…. Kecoh, kecoh! Walaupun hanya kami bertiga, tapi kecoh tetap kecoh sebab aku nih bila berbual-bual volumenyer selalu Maximum High, ayah pulak suka sekali menyakat dan buat lawak… :D

Pagi syawal lah yang selalu sebak… Mendengar Takbir berkumandang... Kakak sekeluarga datang ke rumah – anak-anak buah berbaju raya, cantik sekali… Comel sungguh mereka kelihatan… Boria sekeluarga… Warna dan corak semua sama…

Besalam-salaman Memohon ampun dan maaf - mak, ayah, kakak, abang ipar… Bersama sekali lagi... kali terakhir...

Menitiskan air mata kerana sebak di dada… mencium pipi mak dan ayah… memeluk erat mak, ayah dan kakak… tidak ingin melepaskan, meninggalkan mereka tapi apa kan daya… aku harus pergi…

Mencium tangan mak yang lembut, ayah, kakak… memohon kemaafan atas segala kesalahn ku yang lalu… Menghalalkan segala makan minum ku…

Air mata tidak berhenti menitis, sukar untuk ku mengucapkan apa yang tersirat di hati… Tersedu-sedu..

Anak-anak buah bingung melihat makcik, ibunya, nenek dan datuk menangis… Kenapa mereka menangis? Kan Raya… mesti kena suka-suka! Gembira! Hmmmnn… Orang dewasa nih drama selalu!

Akhirnya, kami berangkat ke rumah Nyayi dengan persaan sebak dan berat sekali…

1 Syawal telah bermula dan rumah sanak saudara akan kami kunjungi bersama… Kali Terakhir…

SELAMAT HARI RAYA KEPADA SEMUA

TAK KIRA DIMANA ANDA BERADA!

MOHON AMPUN DAN MAAF...

Pictures Anyone

2005-10-29T16:28:00.000+01:00

Aaahh... It's sp good tp be back but not really keen on going back to work though! Well, that's life ain't it? I must say that we had a wonderful time on our holiday... Bit of a shock but yes, this is our very first holiday ever... Frankly speaking, I was actually pretty bit nervous about it... Well, they say when you're on a holiday with a partner, it's make or break... & I'm glad to say that this is definetely a make! Bun in the oven? No, not yet but... yes, we are trying!!! Yah!!! Any tips for me mothers? All experience mothers - any tips to quicken the process? Hee! Hee! ;D Cheeky monkey!

So, anyhooo... I'm really excited about Eid... well, it won't be the same like it will be in Singapore but it will do fine... Got an invitation from my boss to her house for Eid... Looking forward to that... Find out how a Pakistani family celebrate Eid. Then over the weekend, the in-law family and some friends will be joining us for Dinner as I, Chef MamiJarum will do her very best to feed them with Malay Traditional dishes... Right now, still thinking of what to whip up... Few items here and there... like Pacri Nenas, Ayam Masak Merah, Rendang Daging (typical dishes), Sambal Tumis Udang, Sambal Goren and Lontong jangan lupa yer! What else? What else? Any ideas ladies & gents? Other different dishes? The Kueh Mueh, I was thinking kueh Lapis and Ondeh-Ondeh...? Does it sound okay? I will be feeding about 15 to 20 people so loads of work need to be done! Any assistance? Hmmm... James? Mum-in-law? We'll see...

Well, I'm the sort of person who like to do all myself. I mean, it will be much of great help to have someone assist you but somehow, I rather do it myself... Coz I know where I'm heading, I know what I'm doing and I know where everything is... Know what I mean?

I've miss so much news & updates on blogs that I donno where to start! Gotta start somewhere & I promise that I will read all the updates... I feel really guilty...

We went to Fuerteventura, that's in the Canary Island and it's a very beautiful place... Mind you, it's not really a tourist friendly environment but still, weather's beautiful, the beaches are beautiful and it just felt great to be away just the two of us... 90% of the people there does not speak English & so communication is really tough... We somehow felt like we are in their way... That's somehow the feeling that we get from them... Like we're not welcome there? Everything there is expensive - food, drinks, clothes, departmental stores... I mean everything!

Must continue later... Need to cook for Iftar!

Pictures will be at http://massylassy.fotopages.com Enjoy them boys & girls and yes, for those who know me well, I HAVE GAIN those pounds and I AM trying real hard to shed those extra pounds off me ALRIGHT?! Leave me alone! Stop judging me! I know I've gain ALOT and my face is as round as a BALL! I'm not thrilled about it but maybe it's because I'm HAPPY???? Hee! Hee!!! Enjoy those pictures guys!

I LOVE YOU too...

OLA! I'm Back

2005-10-27T11:02:00.000+01:00

Will definetely update more on the Holiday with pictures of course once I find the time to sit down for 2 hours and Blog! Yes! that's How long it will take! So, be patience my fellow blogger friends!

I apologise for not being able to read your blogs my blogger friends! Promise! Once I get my head together I will spend 2 more hours just to read ya all to keep me update!

For now, you take care and I will see you soon!!!

Did I say the trip Was Oh FABULASO???

Soy de Inglaterra...

2005-10-11T20:43:00.000+01:00

Time to learn Spanish everyone!

"Hola! Buenas tardes! Encantada de conocerle." (Hi! Good evening! It is nice to meet you)

¿Qué tal estás? (How are you?)

Muy bien, gracias (I am very well, thank you)

Me alegro de verlo (It is good to see you)

¿Qué hora es? (What time is it?)

¿Quién ha hecho esto? (Who did this? Yah! Who did this eh? Did what?)

Necesito una maquinilla de afeitar (I need a razor - why? I donno! Just coz I can! Hee! Hee!)

No funciona el aire acondicionado (The air conditioning is not working)

Puedo contactarle en este teléfono? (Can I contact you on this number? Yah baby!)

¿Podemos acampar en su terreno? (Can we camp in your field?)

Estoy perdido / perdida (I am lost - very lost!)

Café con leche, por favor (Coffee with milk, please)

¿No es éste un diá maravilloso? (Isn't it a lovely day?)

To be Continued... Adiós... Buenas noches everyone!

Cold, Cold, Cold...

2005-10-08T18:17:00.000+01:00

Summer has turned up and depart and now Autumn is staying for the next two months. It wasn’t much of a summer I must say but can’t complain much eh? As I look out the window, clouds were turning grey, rain will fall any time soon… Almost 11am and its time for us to hit the road.

First time in my life, I’ve signed up for Yoga. Last Thursday, me and my pal decided to give Yoga a try. How was it? Well, let me tell you that it’s all about the bending and stretching and paying lots of attention to what the instructor is trying to tell you… She’s gorgeous, and very bendy but what with the peaceful, relaxing, twinkling music at the background playing a wee bit loud, can’t really hear her directions clearly & End up me and my girl looking at each other and mouthing, “What we suppose to be doing?” or “Are we doing this right?” or “Huh?”

It was painful! Excruciating torture; but I feel that it’s worth it… Must think of the end results… What’s the end result from Yoga?

One thing for sure that she didn’t do is welcoming us, introducing herself and also she fail to let us know what it’s all about… So, despite all that…

And she says, “Right, now lets slowly bend your knees and slide forward slowly with your chin on the ground. Now slowly lift your head and your legs up… slowly… take your time and just stay in that position for 1 minute before you slowly release it and go back to the position... and do it again, don’t forget to breathe…”

That wasn’t bad at all, until she told us to balance ourselves with just one leg while we hold the other foot from behind and stretch those muscles as far as we can go… Aaaaarrgghh… That hurts but… niceeeee…

Definitely will do the Yoga again after holiday…

Yes, I know… You must be saying, why are you going holiday at this time of the month? Believe me, it slip our mind… Booked this holiday like months back and totally slip our mind… Sigh… Can’t cancel it coz got to pay penalty fee or something like that which is an extortion…

My back is aching now… Not sure if it’s from the Yoga or from the fact that yesterday, I’ve got to carry about 50 GCLs that weigh about 5 kg each & 10 GCLs that weigh about 7 kg into this wooden box for them to lift it up to the cutting area… this is what you get when you work in a small company comprise of only 4 people (2 Boss, 1 Lab operator and me – Admin.Project Manager, cleaner, coolie). We’ve got to do everything ourselves… We’ve got to do EVERYTHING full stop!

Tired now! Feeling the pain now… Must go and rest…

Today's Positive Note...

2005-10-07T09:18:00.000+01:00

Being defeated is often a
temporary condition.

Giving up is what makes it
permanent.

Marilyn vos Savant

Erk!

2005-10-06T13:34:00.000+01:00

Thursday

2005-10-06T08:10:00.000+01:00

ANOTHER THURSDAY....

What's new eh? Nothing new... Same o same o! Missing my family and friends...

Selamat Semua!!!

2005-10-03T22:25:00.000+01:00

To All My Muslims Blogger Friends,

Reality Friends,

Virtual Friends,

All MJ Friends...

Here's Wishing You A Fulfilling Month of RAMADHAN ahead...

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Kepada Semua Kekawan Bloggers ku

Muslimin Dan Muslimah yang Budiman

Dan Yang Sangat Ku Sayangi (Cheywaaah!)

SELAMAT BERPUASA DI BULAN YANG MULIA INI...

Jangan Lupa Sembahyang Terawih

dan janganlah anda meninggalkan puasa jika hanya perlu sahaja!

Dan Ingat semua nasihatku ini...

Memang benar pada bulan Ramadhan ini

dugaan Senantiasa ada disekeliling mu

terutama sekali apabila masuknya

pukul 5.30 petang hinggalah 6.30/6.45/7.00 petang...

Sebabnyer? Yah! Tak perlulah ku beritahu...

Hidungmu dapat membaunya untuk mu...

Mata mu dapat melihat untuk mu bila kamu scan tempat itu,

dan tangan mu akan terasa gatal sekali dan untuk menghilangkan kegatalan itu,

kamu akan mencapai dompet dari poket atau tas tangan mu

dan mengeluarkan wang mu dan membeli...

Bila beli tu, janganlah membazir yer kakak dan abang...

Jangan beli ter over pulak kuih-muih, lauk pauk - ayam percit tu jangan lupa kak ooi...

TETAPI, kalau ter over beli makanan semua tu kan...

Jangan lah segan silu untuk menghantarnya ker MamiJarum di United Kingdom... Gunakanlah FEDEX atau DHL atau kalau nak hantar sendiri pun boleh jugak...

Tiket penerbangan tu malangnya sendiri yer! Hee! Hee!

SELAMAT BERPUASA SEMUA !!!!

MONDAY

2005-10-03T09:56:00.000+01:00

A cold morning today... Will be a cold day today...

My day will go fine... I just have to hold my chin up and get on with the day...

It will be a wonderful day... It got to be... I want it to be... I pray that it will be...

Have A Nice Day... :D

Bahasa Melayu Ku sungguh karat...

2005-09-30T15:10:00.000+01:00

Ku gelihati sekali apabila membaca blog beliau… Sah, orangnyer mesti kelakar walaupun aku tidak kenal beliau Tetapi, dari gambar yang dia petik dan post di blognyer, dapat ku sahkan bahawa jika bergayut denganya, tak akan kering gusi kita dubuatnyer! Semua kita 'nyer' kan? Mungkin prasangka ku salah, mungkin benar tapi itu hanyalah pandangan ku sahajer! Yer! Mer! Ker! Grrrrrrr!!!

Boleh dikatakan yang aku ni kelakar jugak… Tak, tak perasaan sendiri, tapi ianya adalah satu kebenaran dan aku dapat sahkannya... Nanti ku telipon kekawan dan keluarga, biar diaorang tulis kat blog ku ini dan mengesahkan kebenaran ini.... Ada paham enggak semua nih? Hih? Mih? Tapi ku nih taklah sekelakar dan setalented Afdlin atau Mahadir Shor (betulker ejaan namanyer?) atau mereka-mereka pelawak-pelawak dari Singapura dan Malaysia di mana saat ini nama-nama mereka tak dapat ku ingat… Nanti akan ku tulis nama-nama mereka iyer? Miyer? Kiyer?

Ku sangat lah suka sekali membuat lawak bodoh dihadapan keluarga dan kekawan yang sangat ku rindu pada saat ini… Bukan kerana ku tak ada benda nak buat atau membuang masa dan membuat benda yang tak perfaedah, tetapi, dengan membuat lawak bodoh dan komedi ini, ku rasa Puas hati bila dapat membuat mereka ketawa terbahak-bahak sampai nak pecah perut, sampai ada yang terkencing kat seluar (iskh! tak senonoh kan? Tak malu! Ngompol eh?) dan menghiburkan mereka… dan dapat melihat senyuman di bibir mereka… Rindukah mereka terhadap ku? Kalau tak rindu tak aper! Podah! Kita susah-susah buat dia ketawa, rindu kita pun susah! Pergi satu sudut tuh dan telan bom boleh? Ehhhh! Syiok sendiri pulak kita ni eh??? Jangan marah aaaahhhh!!!! *tersengih-sengih*

Malang sungguh diriku ini kerana ku tidak begitu fasih dalam bahasa Inggeris, begitu juga bahasa Melayu ku… Bahasa apa yang aku fasih pun aku tak tau! Bahasa Zulu kot? Dulu-dulu, apabila di bangku sekolah, aku sungguh chomel... Pipi ku tembam, badan ku gendut sikit tak banyak... ku sangat minat menulis Cerpen dan berpantun sana sini, tapi sekarang, sangatlah kurang… Dulu lagi, Ku minat berSajak dan berSyair… itulah kegemaran ku… Kemerduann bersyair… ayat-ayatnyer sungguh menusuk dikalbu ini… Tapi sekaran, sangatlah kurang.... Masih tidak terlambat kan? Kan? Kan? Kan?

Last Day of the Week & I feel...

2005-09-30T09:41:00.000+01:00

I am freakingly exhausted… Worn-out, dead beat… It's Friday.... Yah! Whatever!!!!

I wanna go Holiday right now! I wanna go away and chill out and just forget about everything NOW... RIGHT THIS VERY MOMENT!

I am so sick and tired of this job and am totally worn-out… This job is draining my energy out and I feel there’s none left… I need some stimulation! Somebody PLEASE help me out here!

Uh oh… My eyelids is giving up on me… I’m going down! Help! Help…
It’s closing in… it’s… zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

I’m gone! Krroooooaaaggghhhh!!!! Drool, drool, Droooooolllll….

It's Difficult But...

2005-09-28T12:43:00.000+01:00

How I wish that I could be by your side
Oh how I wish that I could take the anguish away from you
How I wish that I’m given a magic wand and mend your heart
Oh how I wish that I could be by your side again

I hate to see you in sorrow,

I hate to see you cry yourself to sleep
I want to be there for you, hug you & comfort you

and letting you know that everything is going to be all right…
I want to reassure you and say to you

that you are the greatest,

the most amazing person I’ve ever meet in this existance of mine
I want to take you in my arms and just hold you tight
Providing you all the security and encouragement that you could do with

How I loathe this man for giving grieve
How I hate him for the way he is, the way he comport himself
I hate the way he mistreat

with no respect and no kindness, no tolerance…

though not physical but verbal is so much more wounding and undeviating
Hate is too strong of a word, I know,

but how else can I depict the way I feel towards this person?

I love you so very much my dear and when your heart is wounded,
I too could feel the sharp knife piercing through my heart… Twisting it…
I cry for your affliction

I cry for your sorrow…
I shed tears for you as you do not deserve this torment my dear…

No one does…

I’m here for you night and day

whenever you need a shoulder to cry on,

whenever you need me,
I will be hoping and praying that someday, that one day,

he will come to his right mind

and grasp that you are the best thing that ever happen to him…

A gemstone, a diamond that sets in his life and

to let you go will be a total bereavement for him…
A fool he is if he let you go…

and a fool he will always be for letting you go…

You are the best thing and You deserve so much more –

Smart, Witty, An Angel, Exquisite, Kind-hearted, Sympathetic,

An amazing Companion, Bright and breezy… you’re just wonderful to me…

I beg of you, please don’t say what you said before…

things will get better, you just wait and see…

don’t give up hope my darling…
I know right now you see no light at the end of the tunnel

but if you look intensely, there is… there is light at the end of that tunnel just for you…

Just stay optimistic and pray and leave it all to God!

Time will heal the pain if it comes to that…

I have faith in you...

It's Your Turn Sis!

2005-09-25T16:59:00.000+01:00

As a young girl, I looked up to her
And as an adult, I still do…
She’s an amazing woman, with a passionate and gentle heart.
A kind-hearted soul.
A dedicated mother to her beautiful children,

An honest and faithful wife
A wonderful daughter and an amazing sister.
She’s always been there for me through thick and thin.

Thinking back the days when we were young,

we played and we fight and we made up…

We laughed, we cried as one…

We were a team and still are…

We know what each other wants and there’s no need for verbal communication…

We are like two peas in a pod…

Growing up with her, she teaches me so many things and I learn a lot from her.

She never gave up on me.

She keeps me strong and she pulls me up when I’m down.

She keeps me going.

She never left my side whenever I’m in difficulty…

Whenever I needed her, she’s always there for me…

with a smile, with an encouragement, motivating me all the time.

She’s passionate about what she’s doing…

She never easily gave up no matter how tough the situations are.

She’s a strong woman who knows what she wants.

My friend, my soul-mate, my confider, my teacher, my guru, my motivator,

my sister, my all…

I love her to bits and no one can compare…

She’s beautiful, a classy lady and smart at the same time –

a rare combination if I must say…

A humble human being, funny, good listener…

she has all the qualities that a friend, a sister ever needed in their life…

Having you as my sister is a privilege for me…

I am ever so thankful to God that HE has given me a beautiful sister to grow up with and to love.

Forever I will love you…
We’ll get together sooner than you think!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SISTER, LINDAH!

Me & Sis... Colgate Smile!

I need Time out... Or Do I now?

2005-09-24T23:20:00.000+01:00

It does feel really superb to be able to drive. You can just set off wherever you want and whenever you feel like it as long as you know the route and won’t get lost and stranded in the middle of nowhere! The freedom is there but I still need to gain knowledge of the road here in West Yorkshire. Still have to learn the way to Leeds Showcase, to Ikea, Borders, to the Trafford Centre, White Rose without the hubby’s rally round … Well, I’ll get there somehow! I’m a slow learner but I’ll get there!

I ran through the red light this morning without even realising it… It was my fault no doubt about it and I do regret for not paying attention when on the road… So, whoever is driving on the Halifax road, just watch out for a Lime Green Vauxhall Cors alrite? Danger is lurking when you see that car, my car, with pink cover steering wheel.. .Don’t ask! It’s tacky I know but it’s pink and fluffy and just looks darn cute! No, I’m not THAT girlish, but I do love pink! Hubby bought me a Creative Zen Micro MP3 Player for my Birthday and guess what colour it is? Yep! PINK ladies and gentlemen!

Another one on Friday - I almost, I mean, just very nearly (heck, I did a good emergency brake though!) hit the car in front of me (which by the way didn’t signal sooner than he should of his intention to turn left) as I was mesmerized by this vision of this really good looking lad…

I know! I know! I shouldn’t but I did! I mean, he was absolutely gorgeous! No, not gorgeous but fine-looking, very fit and a look alike of Brad Pitt. No! I’m not kidding… It makes me turn my head to look at him and just about hit the car in front at the same bloody time! Now, which woman in the mind wouldn’t get awe struck by that view eh?

So, that was my split second near death experience… Well, you think I’m melodramatic but it was really scary you know!

And speed… don’t talk to me about speed! I try to keep under control, I did… When it says 30MPH, I tried so intensely to do 30 MPH but it continuously goes to 35MPH (I donno why! Something wrong with the speedometer that’s for sure! It wasn’t me!) and 40MPH? I’m sorry but I did 45/50MPH! It’s the speedometer y’all! I donno what happen! My feet just slip? But I love the National speed limit on the Motorway, on the dual Carriageway or even Single Carriageway… 60MPH! Shall we go 70 or 75? But no, I’ve never tried over than 70 to 75MPH. Not yet… Don’t dare to do it yet AT THE MOMENT…

Heck! It’s all hubby’s fault coz he’s a speed buff if you can call it that! Been in the car with him too long and I pick up his bad habits too quickly, too foolishly… But he’s been driving for more than 8 years and me? Can’t compare can I? I know it’s only been 2 weeks but it’s so out of the question!

Gotta get my head together! I’ve got to behave myself coz I only have 6 points to maintain within the next 2 years… No ticket, no speeding – just follow the bloody rules girl! I will! I will! But why is it so darn hard?

Well, y’all just watch out for the Lime Green Vauxhall Corsa when you drive around Halifax or West Yorkshire! I’ll be driving into Leeds tomorrow okay? So, I give you a head start and the rest is up to you! You decide!

The Pink MP3 From Hubby...

Red Roses From Parents In Law. Still haven't decide on what to get me for my birthday... What abt a blank cheque?

Chocolate and Card from parent's in law

Candles Set from My Bosses... Aww... so kind... What about that bonus?

Note: These are some of the gifts that I get from Friends and Family... From Singapore... it's on its way...